0 Starry Starry Night

Doomed.

Birth borrowed

Fate ill destined

Identity copied

From a Vincent that never shined.

Dropped school

Worked and wondered

Finding passion; seeking reason

In an existence denied

Am a forgotten progeny

That no one hears

Dark as the night, the road I lead

Ascetic I resolved

Forgot the shaving, forgot bathing

Dealt with Him, I, a paranoid schizoid

Moralizing His profundity

Still, no one listens

Mutilated lobe

A piece of me

Priceless dowry of ardor

To Sien by the brothel

Rubbished emotion

Am I heard? No, not at all

Theo and Gaugin

Bade in the midnight of my sorrows

Palette and brush

Rekindles dying flames

Inside this pitch black poke

Staring to the starry night

With the taste of tube paint on my lips

An attempt to submit into the voices within

Ending this misery I do pray,

But still nobody would want to listen.

Silver bullet unto my chest

Ended bouts of paranoia and delusion

In this cradle I lay

Soaking in red

Deserted

I mouth

"Sadness will last forever"

Eyes closed; feet flat

A portrait of surrender

0 My New Blankie

Comfy blankie from mamye ... thankies! :)

Signing Off ... ZZZzzz ... Nytie!

0 Red Letter Day '08

How did my red letter day went? Well, I know its darn too late to post this but I got all so caught up with a lot of things to do ... awww... so sad. Anyway, here's my blow by blow account.

Mawnin

I got up pretty early and greeted all the people celebrating the same red letter day as I do: my kid bro (who is five years younger) and twin sistah by birth date Zane (she's two hours older than me.) :) It is great to have people you truly love to spend the same great day with you.

Since it was still SB observation week, I wore a purple knitted turtle neck top. Kewl! Honestly, I was not in the mood to work. I was a bit sleepy... hihihi!

To my surprise, the SB team gave me a:

dan...dan...dan...dan

A scrumptious chocolate dome cheesecake

The cake's appearance alone made my mouth water. Yum! Am such a sweet tooth. It was very thoughtful of them to remember that my birthday's never complete without a cake. *tears*

Then I met my mom and my bro for a festive dinner @ macapagal seafood market. yummy!

two days later:

I had my celebration with the joinx! at tiendisitas. It was cool to celebrate dinner with the guys and their pets. And it was nice to know that they're all in a happy and stable relationship. Big bro Homer anticipated my pet, but there was no such thing as "my pet." It all ended up in a booze party... kewl!