Tuesday, December 16
0 HA!
After a freakin @**** incident
Am now stuck without dough in this season of cheers
What else do I have to endure?
Me really wanna cry my heart out... :(
Friday, December 12
0 No More You
This gotta end in time.
Good thing 'twas sooner.
So for you.
End it is.
Friday, December 5
0 D@mn!
Temptation.
Hell.
Hate this feeling.
A roller coaster ride.
Screw this.
Am moving forward.
Than be whole lotta crazy.
Tuesday, November 25
0 Dilemma
Wednesday, November 5
Tuesday, November 4
Friday, August 15
0 Goodbye darLo
Back track to what happened August 14:
@ Went to our CoCAAI oath-taking which was followed by a luncheon meeting.
@ Went to office (business as usual)
@ Texted Zane regarding the meet-up (badly need to get the umbrella)
@ Since Dhennis was @ the vicinity as well, we decided to meet up.
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I'll surely miss it. But am looking forward to having a new darLo in my life. Maybe a few months from now.
At the end of the day, karma will still be knocking our doors...
Friday, August 8
0 Ang Ocho-Ocho
Sa mga nangyari sakin sa araw na ito (na wala na akong balak isa-isahin pa) nananalangin pa rin ako na sanay maambunan man lang ng kahit kaunting swerteng dulot ng petsang ito sa iba...
Hay...
Tuesday, August 5
0 Reunion i: Alumni Homecoming
Cameras were flashing here, there and everywhere that it felt like some permanent, fake smile already was plastered upon our faces. Really, smiling for the cameras can be exhausting...whew!
Then we had this nomination thingee wherein an alumni can nominate his fellow alumni to be a part of the college alumni association. Unfortunately, I became a part of the "lucky" fifteen. Anyway, I guess that's the BOSSING's way to expand my social circle.
After the party, my good ol' friend Homer invited us for one hell of a ride in his new Vios. We had coffee at Libis then dropped Rhon and Patrick at Makati. He was also kind enough to drop me and Zane at Cubao. As usual, I didn't went straight home but instead spent the night exchanging thoughts with my twin at her crib.
Indeed, we have all grown up and are now weaving our path to success. Still, in my heart they are the same old gang I had in college. They are my homies, with them am at peace. *sob...sob*
Can't wait to be with them again...
Monday, July 28
0 Reunions
No, am not going back to the portals of my Sintang Paaralan but will be partying with some familiar faces on the 2nd at some garden buffet joint in Timog.
Am not really fond of such activities but the idea that my college homies will be there as well gives me all the reason to attend.
Together Again for a Night.
On the 30th, am more than excited to watch the one-night only event of the, if not, coolest band to ever hit the Pinoy music scene. Cant wait!
August will be a season of reunions indeed.
Tuesday, July 15
0 Walkathon
Yup. I am starting my "shed-some-extra-pounds" journey by making a pact with myself to:
a.) lessen my rice intake but not to the point of starving myself.
b.) make walking an option. ergo: walking to my office every morning.
Not only do I help combat those unsightly flabs, am also lessening my carbon footprint and saving some pennies (hey, if I do walk every morning, I get to save around P11.00 daily...hmmm)
It just takes self-discipline...
I know i can do it... ;p
Monday, July 14
0 You On My Mind
I guess I need to slow down...get unattached before I get caught hook, line and sinker.
I've always been like this...you weren't the first person I became this close with.
Coward as I may seem to be, I just don't wanna get hurt again and be taken for granted for the nth time.
Draw the line I must...
In time, I'll get used to this...
But still I won't leave...I won't.
Wednesday, July 2
Tuesday, July 1
0 Bon Voyage
Hope to hear from you guys soon.
Me gonna miss yah and our drinking sessions.
Monday, June 30
Monday, June 23
0 Survival
Say "go," 'and it will be just a phone call away.
We may not be "powerful" enough to send people in the cold lair
But still, we can have "monsters" busted...
You'll survive my dear...
Tuesday, June 3
1 Memorial Day
(Hirap ng pinagkakaitan ng bakasyon...;p)


Thanks to Tita Emilie for the free accommodations @ the villa and to my MOM for the yummy dinner and after dinner booze.
Friday, May 30
Thursday, May 29
0 Hiling. Tanong. Panalangin.
Upang mahiram ang kinang nito kahit sandali.
Sana'y singkulay ng bahaghari ang bawat araw na darating
At nang ang ngiti'y hindi na pilit.
Nawa'y maging singlaya ng ihip ng hangin ang aking damdamin
Bakit ba hindi naging
Kasing ikli ng bawat sandaling lumilipas ang pananatili ng lumbay?
Mabilis iwaglit ang bigat ng damdaming nadarama?
Paano
Kung mapatid na ang pisi ng pag-unawa?
At mapigtal na ang tanging pag-asang pinaghahawakan?
Kailan
Natatapos ang pighati?
Ngayon.
Bukas.
Baka hindi.
Wednesday, April 23
0 Something to ponder
Have you ever wonder if there is someone, still waiting for you? And the one that you have right now, ever had this strange feeling that you're not meant for each other?From a good friend's journal post ... and honestly, this got me thinking...
Monday, April 14
0 It has been a year
a.) went gaga over ... ('nuff said)
b.) became a part of the SB Manila team
c.) had my heart broken
d.) found few precious gems whom I have learned to treasure and care for.
guess what, am still here, alive and kickin' ass.
sure I had my share of shit, of pit stops and hearty laughs. cried a river over a lot of things that has made me the person I am now.
and with my new 'do, am looking forward to facing another kick ass year...
bring it on! ;p
Thursday, March 13
Monday, March 3
0 Good morning!

Morning Zoo Crew just gives you a good morning even if people at the MRT push you around, crazily shoving their asses inside the coach.
Friday, February 15
0 Starry Starry Night
Doomed.
Birth borrowed
Fate ill destined
Identity copied
From a Vincent that never shined.
Dropped school
Worked and wondered
Finding passion; seeking reason
In an existence denied
Am a forgotten progeny
That no one hears
Dark as the night, the road I lead
Ascetic I resolved
Forgot the shaving, forgot bathing
Dealt with Him, I, a paranoid schizoid
Moralizing His profundity
Still, no one listens
Mutilated lobe
A piece of me
Priceless dowry of ardor
To Sien by the brothel
Rubbished emotion
Am I heard? No, not at all
Theo and Gaugin
Bade in the
Palette and brush
Rekindles dying flames
Inside this pitch black poke
Staring to the starry night
With the taste of tube paint on my lips
An attempt to submit into the voices within
Ending this misery I do pray,
But still nobody would want to listen.
Silver bullet unto my chest
Ended bouts of paranoia and delusion
In this cradle I lay
Soaking in red
Deserted
I mouth
"Sadness will last forever"
Eyes closed; feet flat
A portrait of surrender
Thursday, February 14
0 Red Letter Day '08
Mawnin
I got up pretty early and greeted all the people celebrating the same red letter day as I do: my kid bro (who is five years younger) and twin sistah by birth date Zane (she's two hours older than me.) :) It is great to have people you truly love to spend the same great day with you.
Since it was still SB observation week, I wore a purple knitted turtle neck top. Kewl! Honestly, I was not in the mood to work. I was a bit sleepy... hihihi!
To my surprise, the SB team gave me a:
dan...dan...dan...dan
A scrumptious chocolate dome cheesecakeThe cake's appearance alone made my mouth water. Yum! Am such a sweet tooth. It was very thoughtful of them to remember that my birthday's never complete without a cake. *tears*
Then I met my mom and my bro for a festive dinner @ macapagal seafood market. yummy!
two days later:
I had my celebration with the joinx! at tiendisitas. It was cool to celebrate dinner with the guys and their pets. And it was nice to know that they're all in a happy and stable relationship. Big bro Homer anticipated my pet, but there was no such thing as "my pet." It all ended up in a booze party... kewl!
Wednesday, January 30
0 Hell Day!
actually my day didn't start quite right. got shoved at the MRT, which caused my backache then cut stop at the elevator, waited for around 15 minutes. once I got on my seat, the team told me not to take a look at the scores which was way unacceptable. christ!
hmmm... what else... observation followed. bad news, it was a slow GMA day. talking about bad luck! whatelse?! i run out of load and my friends told me I cant have my moolah yet. :( am freakin' broke!
tomorrow's my red letter day, hope I be blessed with a lil luck...
Tuesday, January 29
0 my first laid back weekend
Sunday was a laid back day. We all had a i-dont-wanna-think-about work mode. Mye helped me do the laundry. Every meal was hearty, thanks to yours truly. Then meann woke up from her miday nap and joined me in watching "Before Sunrise." OMG! It really made me inis and sad and kilig...
Afternoon coffee. Then hearty sinigang for dinner, then hmmm....
Mye and I had some serious talk about life, the future and what we wanted our lives to be. It was a heartfelt moment.
Monday mawnin, we all have to leave early... They have to go to work. Mye's flight to Ilocos was scheduled @ midnight, while I have to be early for work because it Jess and the new boss will be coming over for a four day stay.
Things were really fun. The laid back moment has given me time to just relax. I wish I can replicate the same weekend again...
Friday, January 25
0 What will happen next?
Hope this weekend will be a whole lot of fun before I get grilled Wednesday...
Am starting to dread the coming of my red-letter day.
And I still have a whole load of assignment to finish.
This is driving me nucking futs!
What will happen next, only Him can tell.
Wednesday, January 23
0 round up...
~got an unexpected message from coj friday, he shared to me his latest toy, a DSLR (wish I have one too...)
~had my tour de manila ... shopped some goodies, had my mom's stitches framed
~ laid back moment while waiting for mye and tupe @ starbucks. got myself comfy @ one of the couches while sipping a venti green tea frapp and reading jessica zafra's twistd travels.
~ bonded with mye and her best friend tupe till the wee hours of the mawnin @ starbucks sykes q.ave
~sunday: domesticated mode: laundry, cooked lunch and ironed my office clothes for the coming week.
waaaahhh! i miss traveling.... :(
Wednesday, January 2
0 post New Year drama...
I had a misunderstanding with someone who I haven't seen for the longest time. You see, New year for me was always a time for myself, to be crazy, to contemplate and to do things my way... and this year, I chose to celebrate it with the family of one of the dearest person in my life. But things turned sour when my mom texted me, informing me she was coming home to celebrate new year with me and my bro. not that I don't want to be n her company, but my family is not the kind who celebrates new year ... so I decided to continue my plan, though I already informed my friend that I might just come over. But as the time neared hitting 12, with the dilemma whether to go home or not, I decided to stick with my original plan of merry making with my friend's family.
I love the feeling whenever they treat me like one of them. Tita, actually the whole family, never failed to make me feel like I was a part of their own. Twas' relieving 'coz for the past 3 or 4 years, I celebrate new year alone either at my place or at work. And breaking the monotony of celebrating alone while still being able to think of what I plan to do the coming year was really a breather.After all the fireworks an the booze, 2 hours after midnight, as I was about to cap of the night and get ready to change to my sleep clothes, my friend decided to send me home, telling me that I should be at home because my mom's there. Shocked was an understatement. Yes I know what she told me makes perfect sense but it was really out of the blue. We had a little exchange of bargaining. I even heard tita saying, "if she doesn't want to go home, an she's enjoying herself here, don't force her, it wouldn't make her happier." But, knowing my friend, she prevailed. Before I left, tita even asked me, "Are you sure you really want to go home already, you can stay... " I just shook my head, kissed her goodbye and said, "Ihahatid na po nila ako eh, I'll be okay," but deep within ... I am disheartened. They drove me home at around three in the morning. On our way home, (as if we are not seated side by side) I sent a message to my friend regarding how bad it felt to be dumped ... she replied it was the right thing to do, coz' its new year. I can't remember what exactly she said, all I can remember is that it was about being happy... which I replied "am not." When they dropped me off, just as expected, there was nothing special at my place. We didn't make the usual beso we are used to, and I know I was rude coz I didn't even uttered thanks to the one who drove me home. Then I heard her sorry, but I was too deaf at that moment to hear it. Bro was outside somewhere drinking with his homies, mom's, well, asleep (tired from her travel), and dad as well.
That night, I was the only one up. I can't play loud music, enough to shake the whole place coz I'll wake them up. When I went to check my mom, I decided to sleep beside her, what she muttered was "umaga na ah... buti hindi ka naisgrasa sa putukan..." then turned her back and continued her sleep. I was mindless that morning, and since I was intoxicated with Red Horse, I drifted into a deep slumber.
My morning wake up call started with a bang... seriously! My mom was nagging... what the?! It was way way bad... and it was serious. My bro and I couldn't do anything but silently pray with hopes the nagging would end. Knowing my mom, I know she'll stop but the whole nagging thing lasted for hours. whew! Funny but after all th sermon, she said "hala, kain na..." good thing she pacified.
What happened after in our household that day was a mix of old things dumped in the biggest garbaged bag I have ever seen,









