Tuesday, December 16

0 HA!

What a mess?!
After a freakin @**** incident
Am now stuck without dough in this season of cheers
What else do I have to endure?

Me really wanna cry my heart out... :(


Friday, December 12

0 No More You

Had more than enough of you.
This gotta end in time.
Good thing 'twas sooner.
So for you.
End it is.

Friday, December 5

0 D@mn!

Your a confusion.
Temptation.
Hell.
Hate this feeling.
A roller coaster ride.
Screw this.
Am moving forward.
Than be whole lotta crazy.

Tuesday, November 25

0 Dilemma

My heart is filled with various emotions. My mind is overflowing with thoughts and worries. In this battle of the heart and the mind, what should prevail? Should I or should I not? Crap.

Wednesday, November 5

0 Incompetent

Me.Incompetent.Bow.
Me Can't Write.
Loser.

Tuesday, November 4

0 Just a Thought

Bakit ang PAYO madaling ibigay pero mahirap gamitin?"

Friday, August 15

0 Goodbye darLo

Guess you can't really have the best of both worlds...

I went to Gateway last night to get my umbrella from Zane and to return her flops. I was also with Dhennis (well that's another ish). It was so fun to be with them that it never occurred to me that it would be the last night I'll be with darLo

Back track to what happened August 14:

@ Went to our CoCAAI oath-taking which was followed by a luncheon meeting.
@ Went to office (business as usual)
@ Texted Zane regarding the meet-up (badly need to get the umbrella)
@ Since Dhennis was @ the vicinity as well, we decided to meet up.

~~~~

I don't wanna recall how I lost darLo but the incident was registered in the security's records, had me talking to various food court crew and left me almost begging to the man who answered the phone to return it. The incident capped off my long exhausting day.

Well I guess things do happen for a reason that only He can tell. One thing am thankful is the fact that I didn't got hurt. darLo left without giving me a bruise but only with tears in my eyes.

I'll surely miss it. But am looking forward to having a new darLo in my life. Maybe a few months from now.

At the end of the day, karma will still be knocking our doors...

Friday, August 8

0 Ang Ocho-Ocho

Maraming nagsasabing maswerteng petsa daw ang araw na ito, 08-08-08, dahil isang beses lang sa isang milenyo ito kung dumating.

Sa mga nangyari sakin sa araw na ito (na wala na akong balak isa-isahin pa) nananalangin pa rin ako na sanay maambunan man lang ng kahit kaunting swerteng dulot ng petsang ito sa iba...

Hay...

Tuesday, August 5

0 Reunion i: Alumni Homecoming

Our alumni homecoming was FUN. Together with some of the Joinx, we had a feast of scrumptious food (which was really worth the so and so amount we have to pay for). Along with the abundant food on the buffet table, new edition of grammar bloopers and juicy stories also were shared. Mind you, the usual suspect was back with a whole lot of mind-boggling anecdotes.

Cameras were flashing here, there and everywhere that it felt like some permanent, fake smile already was plastered upon our faces. Really, smiling for the cameras can be exhausting...whew!

Then we had this nomination thingee wherein an alumni can nominate his fellow alumni to be a part of the college alumni association. Unfortunately, I became a part of the "lucky" fifteen. Anyway, I guess that's the BOSSING's way to expand my social circle.

After the party, my good ol' friend Homer invited us for one hell of a ride in his new Vios. We had coffee at Libis then dropped Rhon and Patrick at Makati. He was also kind enough to drop me and Zane at Cubao. As usual, I didn't went straight home but instead spent the night exchanging thoughts with my twin at her crib.

Indeed, we have all grown up and are now weaving our path to success. Still, in my heart they are the same old gang I had in college. They are my homies, with them am at peace. *sob...sob*

Can't wait to be with them again...

Monday, July 28

0 Reunions

Alumni Homecoming.

No, am not going back to the portals of my Sintang Paaralan but will be partying with some familiar faces on the 2nd at some garden buffet joint in Timog.

Am not really fond of such activities but the idea that my college homies will be there as well gives me all the reason to attend.

Together Again for a Night.

On the 30th, am more than excited to watch the one-night only event of the, if not, coolest band to ever hit the Pinoy music scene. Cant wait!

August will be a season of reunions indeed.

Tuesday, July 15

0 Walkathon

Reminder to self: Add MRT Ayala Station to PBCom Tower walkathon to daily routine.

Yup. I am starting my "shed-some-extra-pounds" journey by making a pact with myself to:

a.) lessen my rice intake but not to the point of starving myself.
b.) make walking an option. ergo: walking to my office every morning.

Not only do I help combat those unsightly flabs, am also lessening my carbon footprint and saving some pennies (hey, if I do walk every morning, I get to save around P11.00 daily...hmmm)

It just takes self-discipline...
I know i can do it... ;p

Monday, July 14

0 You On My Mind

I've been thinking of you lately, wonderin' if staying would do me good.
I guess I need to slow down...get unattached before I get caught hook, line and sinker.
I've always been like this...you weren't the first person I became this close with.
Coward as I may seem to be, I just don't wanna get hurt again and be taken for granted for the nth time.
Draw the line I must...
In time, I'll get used to this...
But still I won't leave...I won't.

Wednesday, July 2

0 AMEN

To the almighty BOSSING...
Thankies! You Rock!

Tuesday, July 1

0 Bon Voyage

To my dear cousins Mimi and Nhel who flew last Sunday to Taiwan:

Hope to hear from you guys soon.
Me gonna miss yah and our drinking sessions.

Monday, June 30

0 kHaLiL

A simple present for my dear friend's red letter day:

Monday, June 23

0 Survival

I'll be right behind your back in this fight against the "monster..."
Say "go," 'and it will be just a phone call away.
We may not be "powerful" enough to send people in the cold lair
But still, we can have "monsters" busted...

You'll survive my dear...

Tuesday, June 3

1 Memorial Day

Some wacky pics with my cousins during my first long weekend for '08.
(Hirap ng pinagkakaitan ng b
akasyon...;p)

Thanks to Tita Emilie for the free accommodations @ the villa and to my MOM for the yummy dinner and after dinner booze.




Friday, May 30

1 Missin You

Yes I do. 'Nuff said.

Thursday, May 29

0 Hiling. Tanong. Panalangin.

Kung ang kamay ko'y may kakayahang maglakbay, nais ko abutin nito ang mga talang nagniningning sa himpapawid
Upang mahiram ang kinang nito kahit sandali.

Sana'y singkulay ng bahaghari ang bawat araw na darating
At nang ang ngiti'y hindi na pilit.

Nawa'y maging singlaya ng ihip ng hangin ang aking damdamin

Bakit ba hindi naging

Kasing ikli ng bawat sandaling lumilipas ang pananatili ng lumbay?
Mabilis iwaglit ang bigat ng damdaming nadarama?

Paano

Kung mapatid na ang pisi ng pag-unawa?
At mapigtal na ang tanging pag-asang pinaghahawakan?

Kailan

Natatapos ang pighati?

Ngayon.
Bukas.
Baka hindi.

Wednesday, April 23

0 Something to ponder

Have you ever wonder if there is someone, still waiting for you? And the one that you have right now, ever had this strange feeling that you're not meant for each other?

From a good friend's journal post ... and honestly, this got me thinking...

Monday, April 14

0 It has been a year

yes, it has been a year ... a year since I:

a.) went gaga over ... ('nuff said)
b.) became a part of the SB Manila team
c.) had my heart broken
d.) found few precious gems whom I have learned to treasure and care for.

guess what, am still here, alive and kickin' ass.

sure I had my share of shit, of pit stops and hearty laughs. cried a river over a lot of things that has made me the person I am now.

and with my new 'do, am looking forward to facing another kick ass year...

bring it on! ;p

Thursday, March 13

0 zane's masterpiece

Monday, March 3

0 Good morning!


Morning Zoo Crew just gives you a good morning even if people at the MRT push you around, crazily shoving their asses inside the coach.

Friday, February 15

0 Starry Starry Night

Doomed.

Birth borrowed

Fate ill destined

Identity copied

From a Vincent that never shined.

Dropped school

Worked and wondered

Finding passion; seeking reason

In an existence denied

Am a forgotten progeny

That no one hears

Dark as the night, the road I lead

Ascetic I resolved

Forgot the shaving, forgot bathing

Dealt with Him, I, a paranoid schizoid

Moralizing His profundity

Still, no one listens

Mutilated lobe

A piece of me

Priceless dowry of ardor

To Sien by the brothel

Rubbished emotion

Am I heard? No, not at all

Theo and Gaugin

Bade in the midnight of my sorrows

Palette and brush

Rekindles dying flames

Inside this pitch black poke

Staring to the starry night

With the taste of tube paint on my lips

An attempt to submit into the voices within

Ending this misery I do pray,

But still nobody would want to listen.

Silver bullet unto my chest

Ended bouts of paranoia and delusion

In this cradle I lay

Soaking in red

Deserted

I mouth

"Sadness will last forever"

Eyes closed; feet flat

A portrait of surrender

Thursday, February 14

0 My New Blankie




Comfy blankie from mamye ... thankies! :)

Signing Off ... ZZZzzz ... Nytie!

0 Red Letter Day '08

How did my red letter day went? Well, I know its darn too late to post this but I got all so caught up with a lot of things to do ... awww... so sad. Anyway, here's my blow by blow account.

Mawnin


I got up pretty early and greeted all the people celebrating the same red letter day as I do: my kid bro (who is five years younger) and twin sistah by birth date Zane (she's two hours older than me.) :) It is great to have people you truly love to spend the same great day with you.

Since it was still SB observation week, I wore a purple knitted turtle neck top. Kewl! Honestly, I was not in the mood to w
ork. I was a bit sleepy... hihihi!

To my surprise, the SB team gave me
a:

dan...dan...dan...dan

A scrumptious chocolate dome cheesecake

The cake's appearance alone made my mouth water. Yum! Am such a sweet tooth. It was very thoughtful of them to remember that my birthday's never complete without a cake. *tears*

Then I met my mom and my bro for a festive dinner @ macapagal seafood market. yummy!

two days later:

I had my celebration with the joinx! at tiendisitas. It was cool to celebrate dinner with the guys and their pets. And it was nice to know that they're all in a happy and stable relationship. Big bro Homer anticipated my pet, but there was no such thing as "my pet." It all ended up in a booze party... kewl!




Wednesday, January 30

0 Hell Day!

kewl! I surpassed hell day! yahoo!

actually my day didn't start quite right. got shoved at the MRT, which caused my backache then cut stop at the elevator, waited for around 15 minutes. once I got on my seat, the team told me not to take a look at the scores which was way unacceptable. christ!

hmmm... what else... observation followed. bad news, it was a slow GMA day. talking about bad luck! whatelse?! i run out of load and my friends told me I cant have my moolah yet. :( am freakin' broke!

tomorrow's my red letter day, hope I be blessed with a lil luck...

Tuesday, January 29

0 my first laid back weekend

I had a really fun weekend before I faced hell week. Mye and Meann were @ mt place an we get to uber bond. Saturday ended as one "hintayan and sunduan day." Tiring it may seem to be, it ended up fun, fun, fun. Strolled glorietta, watchd a bit of Kyla's performance (which Mye missed due to some office tangles), ate our hearts out then Rhon joined us for some games. We went home @ midnight, had some booze sessions, got drunk then slept till late Sunday mawnin.

Sunday was a laid back day. We all had a i-dont-wanna-think-about work mode. Mye helped me do the laundry. Every meal was hearty, thanks to yours truly. Then meann woke up from her miday nap and joined me in watching "Before Sunrise." OMG! It really made me inis and sad and kilig...

Afternoon coffee. Then hearty sinigang for dinner, then hmmm....

Mye and I had some serious talk about life, the future and what we wanted our lives to be. It was a heartfelt moment.

Monday mawnin, we all have to leave early... They have to go to work. Mye's flight to Ilocos was scheduled @ midnight, while I have to be early for work because it Jess and the new boss will be coming over for a four day stay.

Things were really fun. The laid back moment has given me time to just relax. I wish I can replicate the same weekend again...

Friday, January 25

0 What will happen next?

Two days more before hell week begins. Seriously, am having mixed emotions... :(

Hope this weekend will be a whole lot of fun before I get grilled Wednesday...

Am starting to dread the coming of my red-letter day.

And I still have a whole load of assignment to finish.


This is driving me nucking futs!

What will happen next, only Him can tell.



Wednesday, January 23

0 round up...

what have transpired last week? hmmm...

~got an unexpected message from coj friday, he shared to me his latest toy, a DSLR (wish I have one too...)
~had my tour de manila ... shopped some goodies, had my mom's stitches framed
~ laid back moment while waiting for mye and tupe @ starbucks. got myself comfy @ one of the couches while sipping a venti green tea frapp and reading jessica zafra's twistd travels.
~ bonded with mye and her best friend tupe till the wee hours of the mawnin @ starbucks sykes q.ave
~sunday: domesticated mode: laundry, cooked lunch and ironed my office clothes for the coming week.

waaaahhh! i miss traveling.... :(

Wednesday, January 2

0 post New Year drama...

Seriously, my new year started way too different than I expected. 'Twas chaotic.
I had a misunderstanding with someone who I haven't seen for the longest time. You see, New year for me was always a time for myself, to be crazy, to contemplate and to do things my way... and this year, I chose to celebrate it with the family of one of the dearest person in my life. But things turned sour when my mom texted me, informing me she was coming home to celebrate new year with me and my bro. not that I don't want to be n her company, but my family is not the kind who celebrates new year ... so I decided to continue my plan, though I already informed my friend that I might just come over. But as the time neared hitting 12, with the dilemma whether to go home or not, I decided to stick with my original plan of merry making with my friend's family.

I love the feeling whenever they treat me like one of them. Tita, actually the whole family, never failed to make me feel like I was a part of their own. Twas' relieving 'coz for the past 3 or 4 years, I celebrate new year alone either at my place or at work. And breaking the monotony of celebrating alone while still being able to think of what I plan to do the coming year was really a breather.After all the fireworks an the booze, 2 hours after midnight, as I was about to cap of the night and get ready to change to my sleep clothes, my friend decided to send me home, telling me that I should be at home because my mom's there. Shocked was an understatement. Yes I know what she told me makes perfect sense but it was really out of the blue. We had a little exchange of bargaining. I even heard tita saying, "if she doesn't want to go home, an she's enjoying herself here, don't force her, it wouldn't make her happier." But, knowing my friend, she prevailed. Before I left, tita even asked me, "Are you sure you really want to go home already, you can stay... " I just shook my head, kissed her goodbye and said, "Ihahatid na po nila ako eh, I'll be okay," but deep within ... I am disheartened.
They drove me home at around three in the morning. On our way home, (as if we are not seated side by side) I sent a message to my friend regarding how bad it felt to be dumped ... she replied it was the right thing to do, coz' its new year. I can't remember what exactly she said, all I can remember is that it was about being happy... which I replied "am not." When they dropped me off, just as expected, there was nothing special at my place. We didn't make the usual beso we are used to, and I know I was rude coz I didn't even uttered thanks to the one who drove me home. Then I heard her sorry, but I was too deaf at that moment to hear it. Bro was outside somewhere drinking with his homies, mom's, well, asleep (tired from her travel), and dad as well.

That night, I was the only one up. I can't play loud music, enough to shake the whole place coz I'll wake them up. When I went to check my mom, I decided to sleep beside her, what she muttered was "umaga na ah... buti hindi ka naisgrasa sa putukan..." then turned her back and continued her sleep. I was mindless that morning, and since I was intoxicated with Red Horse, I drifted into a deep slumber.

My morning wake up call started with a bang... seriously! My mom was nagging... what the?! It was way way bad... and it was serious. My bro and I couldn't do anything but silently pray with hopes the nagging would end. Knowing my mom, I know she'll stop but the whole nagging thing lasted for hours. whew! Funny but after all th sermon, she said "hala, kain na..." good thing she pacified.

What happened after in our household that day was a mix of old things dumped in the biggest garbaged bag I have ever seen,