Dear Lee,
Yes, I am writing to myself. To tell myself that I have to be brave. Bro's leaving for a 9 month contract abroad and as of writing, am effing crying.
I dunno...
I mean it wasn't really a perfect relationship. We have fights. But when you grow up, learn things, surpass challenges and celebrate the same birthday and almost most of the memorable occasions in your life together, it is, I guess, a hard thought that you'll be separated, especially now that the holidays are literally days away.
Come Sunday, I need to get used to a life that I am only to think of myself. I guess I am just afraid for myself. Of the changes and how I would handle it.
And admit it Lee, you are afraid of being alone.
Am gonna miss him, that's for sure.
He is the most sumpungin, masarap ka-bonding at ka-coffee date na brother. I'll never regret the day I prayed for a sibling.
And I love him beyond the stars.
Later,
Cry baby LeeLai
Saturday, December 21
Monday, October 28
0 Season of Flirting
Does being in the mood for flirting equate to being all in love and getting head over heels romantic?
Does flirting always equate to putting labels to what you have with the other person?
Yes, I am kinda new to this, a good news for my BFF who has earned a PhD in flirting with flying colors.
Yes, since I am new to this, am kinda enjoying it at the moment.
But when does this stop?
And what will happen after?
Do I expect something?
Do I just go with the flow?
Or do I simply let go when the flirting is done?
Later!
LeeLai
Sunday, August 11
0 Working on Weekends
I feel kinda drained. And lazy.
Am experiencing a lot of firsts in my new work and that includes bringing home work and doing it on a Sunday.
Am becoming a corporate slave and feeling overworked, underpaid.
I have to change this.
For now, I have to deal with it. Boo!
Later!
Am experiencing a lot of firsts in my new work and that includes bringing home work and doing it on a Sunday.
Am becoming a corporate slave and feeling overworked, underpaid.
I have to change this.
For now, I have to deal with it. Boo!
Later!
Monday, July 15
0 Make or Break
I am feeling a little bit unsure.
I am waiting for the verdict of whether or not I will be offered another contract.
Of whether or not I will be accepting the contract or not.
On whether I will bargain or not.
Can I live up to the constant fickle-mindedness?
Can I suppress my mouth from voicing out my side of the story?
Can I continue to be the messenger to the "gods"?
Let Your will be done.
Later!
I am waiting for the verdict of whether or not I will be offered another contract.
Of whether or not I will be accepting the contract or not.
On whether I will bargain or not.
Can I live up to the constant fickle-mindedness?
Can I suppress my mouth from voicing out my side of the story?
Can I continue to be the messenger to the "gods"?
Let Your will be done.
Later!
Friday, June 7
0 PR Life
I am now embracing a new career, in a PR company. It is different than the homebased work that I was used to. Here, I need to dress up, report to the office and to be at my toes. I don't have a team to handle but I have accounts to juggle. I need to learn a new set of jargon and mingle with new set of co-workers. Above all, I have a cerebral for a boss. For five years, though I met my former project's CEO, most of the work and meetings were done virtually. Now, my boss is literally a few steps away from my cube and would call me every now and then.
Am a few days short of my second month. I am now realizing the gravity of the position I am handling. I have had a love-hate relationship with deadlines and reports. I have been at my wits end computing columns, centimeters and media mileage equivalent. I have experienced being at multiple places in a day.
I have to admit, I was fearful entering this new career path. It was way different than my comfort zone. But the encouragement I am getting is overwhelming. I have had lows, and even have "awkward" moments with co-workers over some tasks. In times like this, I always think of a statement that a former co-worker once told me. That we go to our workplaces to work and get things done. Having friends at the workplace is a bonus.
Guess I am still lucky for I have, in a way, gained new acquaintances. They may have different beliefs but its nice to know that I somehow fit in. That they'd defend my a** for as long as they see that it wasn't really my fault. Sometimes I have to admit, I do get tired of the tedious work that I am learning or with the change in my boss' mood swings. However, everyday is a new learning curve. And I am not quitting. After all, I am a resilient cookie.
Whatever happens, I'll do good and I will be good.
Till then...
Am a few days short of my second month. I am now realizing the gravity of the position I am handling. I have had a love-hate relationship with deadlines and reports. I have been at my wits end computing columns, centimeters and media mileage equivalent. I have experienced being at multiple places in a day.
I have to admit, I was fearful entering this new career path. It was way different than my comfort zone. But the encouragement I am getting is overwhelming. I have had lows, and even have "awkward" moments with co-workers over some tasks. In times like this, I always think of a statement that a former co-worker once told me. That we go to our workplaces to work and get things done. Having friends at the workplace is a bonus.
Guess I am still lucky for I have, in a way, gained new acquaintances. They may have different beliefs but its nice to know that I somehow fit in. That they'd defend my a** for as long as they see that it wasn't really my fault. Sometimes I have to admit, I do get tired of the tedious work that I am learning or with the change in my boss' mood swings. However, everyday is a new learning curve. And I am not quitting. After all, I am a resilient cookie.
Whatever happens, I'll do good and I will be good.
Till then...
Monday, April 8
0 Goodbye and Hello
In a week's time, I'll be moving to another company. Yes, I am letting go of my comfort zone and will start anew in a local PR company based in Makati. Gone are the days of working in my PJs. I need to say hello to wardrobe change, embrace commuting once more, develop a love-hate relationship with the bundy clock, meeting new people and facing new challenges. Finally, in my 7 years as a member of the workforce, I'll be able to experience Philippine holidays.
I have doubts. And worries. And fears. What if I don't fit in? What if I am unable to deliver results as expected? What if I fail?
My friends whom I have spoken about this upcoming change have already shown their support and showered me with much needed confidence booster, which I highly appreciate.
I hate goodbyes. Good thing though, my so-called "despedida" was moved 2 days before my actually last day of work. At least, it would spare me some emo moments. But deep within, am gonna miss the friends I've made in SB. However, thank God for social media. At least, we could still stay in touch.
Whew! Am feeling the pressure and the freedom at the same time. Well, come what may. Good luck self, you can do it! ;)
I have doubts. And worries. And fears. What if I don't fit in? What if I am unable to deliver results as expected? What if I fail?
My friends whom I have spoken about this upcoming change have already shown their support and showered me with much needed confidence booster, which I highly appreciate.
I hate goodbyes. Good thing though, my so-called "despedida" was moved 2 days before my actually last day of work. At least, it would spare me some emo moments. But deep within, am gonna miss the friends I've made in SB. However, thank God for social media. At least, we could still stay in touch.
Whew! Am feeling the pressure and the freedom at the same time. Well, come what may. Good luck self, you can do it! ;)
Thursday, January 10
0 Surviving 2012. Welcoming 2013.
10 days since the calendar year changed.
21 days to go before I turn 20+ -ish.
21 days before my first out of the country invasion.
11 months and 21 days of blank pages to a new life chapter.
Numbers. Dates. Days.
2012
Bread and Butter
An emotional roller coaster filled year. Major changes happened at work. People come, people go. Gained friends along the way. Still, I remained resilient and focused with the challenges. My day job is still considerably stable while my wedding planning business is, I should say, is growing. I am able to make new connections to help me in the process of learning and improving this craft. I could say I have found my inner passion.
Stories from the heart
I still don't have someone to call my own. Cupid missed the arrow last year. I dated a few but that was it. From the dates, I have further analyzed what I want in my future relationship. Though I still long for that long walks, star-gazing together and having that "perfect moment even in silence," I have learned that I must completely heal and fulfill my goals first and feel good about myself before I could share that special feeling to my future better half.
Along the way, I found closure with the guy who almost made me change my surname. I have to admit, it was sad knowing that he wasn't happy after we had separate ways, since I prayed for his happiness in exchange of my broken heart and shattered dream of "I do." But I believe it wasn't the right time then or he ain't the right person yet. The closure rekindled all the pain I felt two years ago. But then I realized, I would never be able to give myself to that "somebody" if I still carry the skeletons of the past. Love will come my way. Deep within I can feel it will. A girl can dream. :)
Itchy Feet
I haven't traveled much over the past year. The only place I remembered visiting was Taal, Batangas. I promised myself that I will find time to cure my itchy feet come 2013. That I will do.
Lost and Never Found
Lost some material things when the house was robbed last August. Still, I am thankful I wasn't hurt and that He will provide me with the things I need. I just need to have faith.
Blood is Thicker Than Water
It is indeed. I have made close bonds with my cousins on both ends. Its fun. Bro graduated and passed the ME boards, a major horray to be truly thankful in 2012.
2013
I am positive that this year will be good. I have just booked my first client for a wedding mid-2013. The last 2 days was spent bonding and just feeling good with my cousins and brother. I still have 355 days to write not only fun and challenging stories worth remembering. I am indeed blessed to be given another year.
Here's to good life, good health and fun 2013!
21 days to go before I turn 20+ -ish.
21 days before my first out of the country invasion.
11 months and 21 days of blank pages to a new life chapter.
Numbers. Dates. Days.
2012
Bread and Butter
An emotional roller coaster filled year. Major changes happened at work. People come, people go. Gained friends along the way. Still, I remained resilient and focused with the challenges. My day job is still considerably stable while my wedding planning business is, I should say, is growing. I am able to make new connections to help me in the process of learning and improving this craft. I could say I have found my inner passion.
Stories from the heart
I still don't have someone to call my own. Cupid missed the arrow last year. I dated a few but that was it. From the dates, I have further analyzed what I want in my future relationship. Though I still long for that long walks, star-gazing together and having that "perfect moment even in silence," I have learned that I must completely heal and fulfill my goals first and feel good about myself before I could share that special feeling to my future better half.
Along the way, I found closure with the guy who almost made me change my surname. I have to admit, it was sad knowing that he wasn't happy after we had separate ways, since I prayed for his happiness in exchange of my broken heart and shattered dream of "I do." But I believe it wasn't the right time then or he ain't the right person yet. The closure rekindled all the pain I felt two years ago. But then I realized, I would never be able to give myself to that "somebody" if I still carry the skeletons of the past. Love will come my way. Deep within I can feel it will. A girl can dream. :)
Itchy Feet
I haven't traveled much over the past year. The only place I remembered visiting was Taal, Batangas. I promised myself that I will find time to cure my itchy feet come 2013. That I will do.
Lost and Never Found
Lost some material things when the house was robbed last August. Still, I am thankful I wasn't hurt and that He will provide me with the things I need. I just need to have faith.
Blood is Thicker Than Water
It is indeed. I have made close bonds with my cousins on both ends. Its fun. Bro graduated and passed the ME boards, a major horray to be truly thankful in 2012.
2013
I am positive that this year will be good. I have just booked my first client for a wedding mid-2013. The last 2 days was spent bonding and just feeling good with my cousins and brother. I still have 355 days to write not only fun and challenging stories worth remembering. I am indeed blessed to be given another year.
Here's to good life, good health and fun 2013!
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