0 Battered

Never thought that the one guy I was trusting not to hurt me both physically and emotionally (not in a million years) did just that all at the same time. The one guy who is supposed to love me unconditionally despite all the dramas and shits. The one guy who came from the same womb as I do, who celebrates the same natal day as I do had just, well gave me the most number of injuries I had, for the record, in my whole damn life. Forget about the physical pain, it can heal. But a wounded heart and a shattered respect plus the drama that yes, I might really be the person he accuses me to be but its just that no damn brave soul can tell it straight into my face (being a kabit, tamad, bobo, tanga and yes the most hurtful Pinoy curse one can throw in the name of your mom) will never be cured by a mere bandage or a head xray (which I might just need now) coupled with mefenamics and topical painkillers.

Yes I am battered.

1 Stagnant

For some reason, I feel like am stuck in a big bad mess full of revelations and uncertainties. I still harbor some thoughts that make me really blue. Yeah I must say, I guess this is a matter of being contented with the things surrounding me. And my inner wishes of someone to understand and comfort me rule.

But here I am searching for the unknown.
I am not living, I am only existing.

Hell... this ain't right...

I should know how important the 5Ws and 1H, yet no matter how I have mastered those, am still not able to use it to its fullest. I cannot even apply the theories to the way that I am suppose to live my friggin' life.

IN this little space, I can be all emo, all sad and I couldn't care less as to how people would perceive me. After all, they have already created an image of me far beyond who I really am.

Hell, this is just one shitty crap re-written and re-purposed all over again and I HATE it!

0 B for Betrayal

Betrayal of trust in friendship is equal to:

~end of all communication
~crumbled circle of friends (or taking sides for that matter)
~hurtful words thrown here, there and everywhere.

However, should this be patched, still it would be hard to mend a cracked trust.

0 Snaps

Finally completed my basic photography course. The verdict: Amazing!

Coming up with a good pic is hell tasking, but who am I to complain? I am sooo loving it... :)

I had lots of realizations during the workshop, plus I gained a new batch of friends. Kewl indeed!