0 The day I start MISSING

Sometimes no matter how toughie my exteriors are
I still crave for girly things most girls do
Like long walks in the park, kisses under the moon, feeling another hand entwined with yours
Preparing your meals, sharing with you my dreams
Simply put
loving.

Sometimes

I miss being with you.
I dunno.
Though I wonder

Do I miss you?
Or do I miss the things we used to do?

1 Stepping Back

After my long letter and some sort of revenge I am now willing to shut up and start a new.
Still a long journey though.
God give me strength.

0 Thank GOD for Friends

I
thank the one ABOVE
for showering me
with great friends

They scream
They get mad
They listen
They give a helping hand

Things may be a mess
But they lessen my distress

Friends, friends
I am with
big thanks!

0 And so the wind blows

If in time this does not go well with us...
Let me just say this

Thank you
for the
honesty
openness
and
the love.

It may be short lived
we may surpass the test of times

who knows?

Not me.
Not you.

But then again

THANK YOU!

0 Ang Pumatol...Talo

Ginising ako ng isang text message.
Kasinungalingan sa mga panahong napagtanto ko na ang katotohanan.

Pagmamakaawa
Pagsusumamo
O maaari din namang " emotional blackmail"

Kahit ano pang sabihin mo
Hindi ako patitinag.
Meron akong ebidensya

Hindi ako nananagasa.
Hindi ako nananapak.
Hindi ako nang-aagaw.

Ikaw
mag-isip ka
ginugulo mo ba ko dahil sa panghihinayang?
dahil sa pagiging makasarili?
o maari din namang sa parehong dahilan.

At muli't muli tama nga ang mga maalam
Ang pagsisisi lagi na'y asa huli...

0 Tandem

Chaotic the situation may seem
But you and me will remain a team

You'll fly, yes, you'll take time, yes
But that ain't synonymous
To saying goodbye

Our plans are still our plans
Slowing down yes we must

In time
God's time
We will know
How it would really be...

0 Ibang direksyon

Umihip na ba ang hangin?
Tumalikod na ba sa akin ang simoy o
nakikihamok pa rin kami sa lakas ni Habagat?

Baka naman ako nalang
ang ganito
ang lumalaban
mag-isa.

0 Palaisipan

Nababagabag. Yun ang nararamdaman ko sa ngayon. May mga suliraning gusto ng matapos. Mga tanong na gustong masagot. Alam ko kinakailangan ng konti pang panahon para matapos ang lahat. Ngunit minsan, nakakaramdam na rin naman ng pagkapagal ang isip, ng pagkahapo ang puso. Minsan, ninanais ko na lang sumuko, bumitiw, tumakbo. Pero isa yung karuwagan. 

Kung susuriin ang mga pananaw ng mga tao sa palgid, lahat sila'y nagbibigay ng pag-asa na maayos din ang lahat. Pero mas ninais kong ilapit nalang sa Panginoon ang mga problema. 

0 The Storm

Rain has started to pour on us
Strongly
Hard winds blowing
Strongly
Lightning and thunder has made its presence known
Strongly

We will surpass this
We will survive
At a rainbow we will gaze
A sunshine we'll embrace

0 Tears

Again, it invades my eyes and flows non-stop.
Just when I thought I already had enough.

When will my tear ducts ever dry up?

Am about to surrender
So please, give me a reason to hold on
To fight
And to still believe in love.

0 Down

Hormonal?
Emotional?

Maybe.

One thing is for sure.

Am blue.

0 Blame it on GranMa

Thanks to the borrowed courage from GranMa I was able to tell him how I feel.
Good thing there were no awkward morning after conversations about it.

Never again will I drink GranMa. It is a promise.

1 Recovery

A week after the mind boggling comprehensive exams, am still barking like a dog (not good) though I (think) I already had enough rest to relax my thoughts of any Communication related concepts and what nots.

Hell yeah, a few more days and I'll be completing most of my papers.


Btw, chopping of some of my crowning glory's unwanted inches and shaping my unibrow made me feel lighter than ever. Though my frizzy hair is still a prob, I am, however, loving the riot of my curls...think I have to buy a good ol' round hairbrush and a good styling product to tame the mane. :)

0 Appreciation

A reason to enjoy my work (no matter how shitty it could be at times)

Working at your own pace
In your own comfort zone

Just like now.

The busy streets of Makati on the background+hot tea+free wifi access+great sounds = chillaxing work mode

Simple, yes.
Shallow, yes.
Tranquil, definitely. :)

0 Tiny Creations Called Babies

Visiting a nursery and seeing little adorable babies makes me envy green of their parents. Wish I could have one without experiencing the pains of labor and delivery. Oh well, there is adoption but they say seeing the face of your child suffices all the birth pains a mom endures.

Too my future Aykah or Itoh...
In time my dearest, we will be together...:)

0 And she joins the world

She's almost at the finish line. Zooming out to nine months of wait while zooming in to years of motherhood.

Congratulations!

0 This made me teary eyed

This ain't about the published article that I wrote. What made me teary eyed is the thought that someone's more than willing to tell the world that am capable and that she's proud of me and my work (she photographed my article and uploaded it in Facebook, in the caption she stated how proud she was of my work). What even surprised me is that she won't bother uploading her own portraits (she's a total cam whore) but she made an effort to go online an make a folder showcasing the magazine article I wrote.


(a photo hacked from her FB account)

That lifted my almost doomed self-confidence.

Call me stupid, but yeah I was a lil 'jahe' over what she did (it really aint necessary) but hey it made me realized how loved I am.

Just what I need to start my next quarter life on a good note...

And to you my precious friend...gracias!

0 Unreliable Ako. Bow,

Ipinagkakanulo na ako ng mga luhang pilit sumisilay sa aking mata. Manhid na ang pakiramdam. Pagod na ang isip na umintindi. Na pagbulayan kung sino ang tama, ano ang mali o saan nagkamali. Mahirap pakitunguhan ang damdaming samu't-sari. Hindi pa man nakakapagsalita'y pagod na ang mga labing usalin ang mga paliwanag.

Unreliable.

Sa totoo lang, hindi ko na alam kung saan lululugar, kung paano makikitungo. Siguro nga'y sadyang hindi ko binigyang pagpapahalaga kung ano mang bagay ang meron ako. Ngunit paano mo pahahalagahan ang isang bagay na sa simula pa'y minarkahan ka na. Na alam mong kahit anong pilit mong ipakita ang iyong kakayahan ay hindi yun magiging sapat upang umabot ka sa standard. Maaring masyado akong naging "petiks."

Sabi nga, sa isang libong tamang iyong gagawin, ang isang pagkakamali ay magdudulot ng lamat na higit sa dami ng tamang naipakita. Sadya bang mas madaling sabihin ang panlilibak kesa umusal ng papuri't pasasalamat?

Siguro nga'y sadyang balat-sibuyas lamang ako, o di kaya'y nasaling ang pride. Aminado akong nakagawa din naman ako ng pagkakamali. Siguro nga'y mas naging matimbang ang aking mga pagkakamali.

Isisi na lang natin ang lahat sa akin ng matapos na ang rigodon...

0 Days Short Before 2010

Working my way to having a better and more fruitful year ahead.
WoW from someone in the land of maple leaves:

"If it's not working already, learn to let go..."

I will in a...
Month
Week
Day.

1 Click!

I know am still sloppy in terms of using my new baby but still lemme share to you some pics