Monday, June 30
Monday, June 23
0 Survival
I'll be right behind your back in this fight against the "monster..."
Say "go," 'and it will be just a phone call away.
We may not be "powerful" enough to send people in the cold lair
But still, we can have "monsters" busted...
You'll survive my dear...
Say "go," 'and it will be just a phone call away.
We may not be "powerful" enough to send people in the cold lair
But still, we can have "monsters" busted...
You'll survive my dear...
Tuesday, June 3
1 Memorial Day
Some wacky pics with my cousins during my first long weekend for '08.
(Hirap ng pinagkakaitan ng bakasyon...;p)
(Hirap ng pinagkakaitan ng bakasyon...;p)
Thanks to Tita Emilie for the free accommodations @ the villa and to my MOM for the yummy dinner and after dinner booze.
Friday, May 30
Thursday, May 29
0 Hiling. Tanong. Panalangin.
Kung ang kamay ko'y may kakayahang maglakbay, nais ko abutin nito ang mga talang nagniningning sa himpapawid
Upang mahiram ang kinang nito kahit sandali.
Sana'y singkulay ng bahaghari ang bawat araw na darating
At nang ang ngiti'y hindi na pilit.
Nawa'y maging singlaya ng ihip ng hangin ang aking damdamin
Bakit ba hindi naging
Kasing ikli ng bawat sandaling lumilipas ang pananatili ng lumbay?
Mabilis iwaglit ang bigat ng damdaming nadarama?
Paano
Kung mapatid na ang pisi ng pag-unawa?
At mapigtal na ang tanging pag-asang pinaghahawakan?
Kailan
Natatapos ang pighati?
Ngayon.
Bukas.
Baka hindi.
Upang mahiram ang kinang nito kahit sandali.
Sana'y singkulay ng bahaghari ang bawat araw na darating
At nang ang ngiti'y hindi na pilit.
Nawa'y maging singlaya ng ihip ng hangin ang aking damdamin
Bakit ba hindi naging
Kasing ikli ng bawat sandaling lumilipas ang pananatili ng lumbay?
Mabilis iwaglit ang bigat ng damdaming nadarama?
Paano
Kung mapatid na ang pisi ng pag-unawa?
At mapigtal na ang tanging pag-asang pinaghahawakan?
Kailan
Natatapos ang pighati?
Ngayon.
Bukas.
Baka hindi.
Wednesday, April 23
0 Something to ponder
Have you ever wonder if there is someone, still waiting for you? And the one that you have right now, ever had this strange feeling that you're not meant for each other?From a good friend's journal post ... and honestly, this got me thinking...
Monday, April 14
0 It has been a year
yes, it has been a year ... a year since I:
a.) went gaga over ... ('nuff said)
b.) became a part of the SB Manila team
c.) had my heart broken
d.) found few precious gems whom I have learned to treasure and care for.
guess what, am still here, alive and kickin' ass.
sure I had my share of shit, of pit stops and hearty laughs. cried a river over a lot of things that has made me the person I am now.
and with my new 'do, am looking forward to facing another kick ass year...
bring it on! ;p
a.) went gaga over ... ('nuff said)
b.) became a part of the SB Manila team
c.) had my heart broken
d.) found few precious gems whom I have learned to treasure and care for.
guess what, am still here, alive and kickin' ass.
sure I had my share of shit, of pit stops and hearty laughs. cried a river over a lot of things that has made me the person I am now.
and with my new 'do, am looking forward to facing another kick ass year...
bring it on! ;p
Thursday, March 13
Monday, March 3
0 Good morning!
Morning Zoo Crew just gives you a good morning even if people at the MRT push you around, crazily shoving their asses inside the coach.
Friday, February 15
0 Starry Starry Night
Doomed.
Birth borrowed
Fate ill destined
Identity copied
From a Vincent that never shined.
Dropped school
Worked and wondered
Finding passion; seeking reason
In an existence denied
Am a forgotten progeny
That no one hears
Dark as the night, the road I lead
Ascetic I resolved
Forgot the shaving, forgot bathing
Dealt with Him, I, a paranoid schizoid
Moralizing His profundity
Still, no one listens
Mutilated lobe
A piece of me
Priceless dowry of ardor
To Sien by the brothel
Rubbished emotion
Am I heard? No, not at all
Theo and Gaugin
Bade in the
Palette and brush
Rekindles dying flames
Inside this pitch black poke
Staring to the starry night
With the taste of tube paint on my lips
An attempt to submit into the voices within
Ending this misery I do pray,
But still nobody would want to listen.
Silver bullet unto my chest
Ended bouts of paranoia and delusion
In this cradle I lay
Soaking in red
Deserted
I mouth
"Sadness will last forever"
Eyes closed; feet flat
A portrait of surrender
Thursday, February 14
0 Red Letter Day '08
How did my red letter day went? Well, I know its darn too late to post this but I got all so caught up with a lot of things to do ... awww... so sad. Anyway, here's my blow by blow account.
Mawnin
I got up pretty early and greeted all the people celebrating the same red letter day as I do: my kid bro (who is five years younger) and twin sistah by birth date Zane (she's two hours older than me.) :) It is great to have people you truly love to spend the same great day with you.
Since it was still SB observation week, I wore a purple knitted turtle neck top. Kewl! Honestly, I was not in the mood to work. I was a bit sleepy... hihihi!
To my surprise, the SB team gave me a:
dan...dan...dan...dan
A scrumptious chocolate dome cheesecake
The cake's appearance alone made my mouth water. Yum! Am such a sweet tooth. It was very thoughtful of them to remember that my birthday's never complete without a cake. *tears*
Then I met my mom and my bro for a festive dinner @ macapagal seafood market. yummy!
two days later:
I had my celebration with the joinx! at tiendisitas. It was cool to celebrate dinner with the guys and their pets. And it was nice to know that they're all in a happy and stable relationship. Big bro Homer anticipated my pet, but there was no such thing as "my pet." It all ended up in a booze party... kewl!
Mawnin
I got up pretty early and greeted all the people celebrating the same red letter day as I do: my kid bro (who is five years younger) and twin sistah by birth date Zane (she's two hours older than me.) :) It is great to have people you truly love to spend the same great day with you.
Since it was still SB observation week, I wore a purple knitted turtle neck top. Kewl! Honestly, I was not in the mood to work. I was a bit sleepy... hihihi!
To my surprise, the SB team gave me a:
dan...dan...dan...dan
A scrumptious chocolate dome cheesecakeThe cake's appearance alone made my mouth water. Yum! Am such a sweet tooth. It was very thoughtful of them to remember that my birthday's never complete without a cake. *tears*
Then I met my mom and my bro for a festive dinner @ macapagal seafood market. yummy!
two days later:
I had my celebration with the joinx! at tiendisitas. It was cool to celebrate dinner with the guys and their pets. And it was nice to know that they're all in a happy and stable relationship. Big bro Homer anticipated my pet, but there was no such thing as "my pet." It all ended up in a booze party... kewl!
Wednesday, January 30
0 Hell Day!
kewl! I surpassed hell day! yahoo!
actually my day didn't start quite right. got shoved at the MRT, which caused my backache then cut stop at the elevator, waited for around 15 minutes. once I got on my seat, the team told me not to take a look at the scores which was way unacceptable. christ!
hmmm... what else... observation followed. bad news, it was a slow GMA day. talking about bad luck! whatelse?! i run out of load and my friends told me I cant have my moolah yet. :( am freakin' broke!
tomorrow's my red letter day, hope I be blessed with a lil luck...
actually my day didn't start quite right. got shoved at the MRT, which caused my backache then cut stop at the elevator, waited for around 15 minutes. once I got on my seat, the team told me not to take a look at the scores which was way unacceptable. christ!
hmmm... what else... observation followed. bad news, it was a slow GMA day. talking about bad luck! whatelse?! i run out of load and my friends told me I cant have my moolah yet. :( am freakin' broke!
tomorrow's my red letter day, hope I be blessed with a lil luck...
Tuesday, January 29
0 my first laid back weekend
I had a really fun weekend before I faced hell week. Mye and Meann were @ mt place an we get to uber bond. Saturday ended as one "hintayan and sunduan day." Tiring it may seem to be, it ended up fun, fun, fun. Strolled glorietta, watchd a bit of Kyla's performance (which Mye missed due to some office tangles), ate our hearts out then Rhon joined us for some games. We went home @ midnight, had some booze sessions, got drunk then slept till late Sunday mawnin.
Sunday was a laid back day. We all had a i-dont-wanna-think-about work mode. Mye helped me do the laundry. Every meal was hearty, thanks to yours truly. Then meann woke up from her miday nap and joined me in watching "Before Sunrise." OMG! It really made me inis and sad and kilig...
Afternoon coffee. Then hearty sinigang for dinner, then hmmm....
Mye and I had some serious talk about life, the future and what we wanted our lives to be. It was a heartfelt moment.
Monday mawnin, we all have to leave early... They have to go to work. Mye's flight to Ilocos was scheduled @ midnight, while I have to be early for work because it Jess and the new boss will be coming over for a four day stay.
Things were really fun. The laid back moment has given me time to just relax. I wish I can replicate the same weekend again...
Sunday was a laid back day. We all had a i-dont-wanna-think-about work mode. Mye helped me do the laundry. Every meal was hearty, thanks to yours truly. Then meann woke up from her miday nap and joined me in watching "Before Sunrise." OMG! It really made me inis and sad and kilig...
Afternoon coffee. Then hearty sinigang for dinner, then hmmm....
Mye and I had some serious talk about life, the future and what we wanted our lives to be. It was a heartfelt moment.
Monday mawnin, we all have to leave early... They have to go to work. Mye's flight to Ilocos was scheduled @ midnight, while I have to be early for work because it Jess and the new boss will be coming over for a four day stay.
Things were really fun. The laid back moment has given me time to just relax. I wish I can replicate the same weekend again...
Friday, January 25
0 What will happen next?
Two days more before hell week begins. Seriously, am having mixed emotions... :(
Hope this weekend will be a whole lot of fun before I get grilled Wednesday...
Am starting to dread the coming of my red-letter day.
And I still have a whole load of assignment to finish.
This is driving me nucking futs!
What will happen next, only Him can tell.
Hope this weekend will be a whole lot of fun before I get grilled Wednesday...
Am starting to dread the coming of my red-letter day.
And I still have a whole load of assignment to finish.
This is driving me nucking futs!
What will happen next, only Him can tell.
Wednesday, January 23
0 round up...
what have transpired last week? hmmm...
~got an unexpected message from coj friday, he shared to me his latest toy, a DSLR (wish I have one too...)
~had my tour de manila ... shopped some goodies, had my mom's stitches framed
~ laid back moment while waiting for mye and tupe @ starbucks. got myself comfy @ one of the couches while sipping a venti green tea frapp and reading jessica zafra's twistd travels.
~ bonded with mye and her best friend tupe till the wee hours of the mawnin @ starbucks sykes q.ave
~sunday: domesticated mode: laundry, cooked lunch and ironed my office clothes for the coming week.
waaaahhh! i miss traveling.... :(
~got an unexpected message from coj friday, he shared to me his latest toy, a DSLR (wish I have one too...)
~had my tour de manila ... shopped some goodies, had my mom's stitches framed
~ laid back moment while waiting for mye and tupe @ starbucks. got myself comfy @ one of the couches while sipping a venti green tea frapp and reading jessica zafra's twistd travels.
~ bonded with mye and her best friend tupe till the wee hours of the mawnin @ starbucks sykes q.ave
~sunday: domesticated mode: laundry, cooked lunch and ironed my office clothes for the coming week.
waaaahhh! i miss traveling.... :(
Wednesday, January 2
0 post New Year drama...
Seriously, my new year started way too different than I expected. 'Twas chaotic.
I had a misunderstanding with someone who I haven't seen for the longest time. You see, New year for me was always a time for myself, to be crazy, to contemplate and to do things my way... and this year, I chose to celebrate it with the family of one of the dearest person in my life. But things turned sour when my mom texted me, informing me she was coming home to celebrate new year with me and my bro. not that I don't want to be n her company, but my family is not the kind who celebrates new year ... so I decided to continue my plan, though I already informed my friend that I might just come over. But as the time neared hitting 12, with the dilemma whether to go home or not, I decided to stick with my original plan of merry making with my friend's family.
I love the feeling whenever they treat me like one of them. Tita, actually the whole family, never failed to make me feel like I was a part of their own. Twas' relieving 'coz for the past 3 or 4 years, I celebrate new year alone either at my place or at work. And breaking the monotony of celebrating alone while still being able to think of what I plan to do the coming year was really a breather.After all the fireworks an the booze, 2 hours after midnight, as I was about to cap of the night and get ready to change to my sleep clothes, my friend decided to send me home, telling me that I should be at home because my mom's there. Shocked was an understatement. Yes I know what she told me makes perfect sense but it was really out of the blue. We had a little exchange of bargaining. I even heard tita saying, "if she doesn't want to go home, an she's enjoying herself here, don't force her, it wouldn't make her happier." But, knowing my friend, she prevailed. Before I left, tita even asked me, "Are you sure you really want to go home already, you can stay... " I just shook my head, kissed her goodbye and said, "Ihahatid na po nila ako eh, I'll be okay," but deep within ... I am disheartened. They drove me home at around three in the morning. On our way home, (as if we are not seated side by side) I sent a message to my friend regarding how bad it felt to be dumped ... she replied it was the right thing to do, coz' its new year. I can't remember what exactly she said, all I can remember is that it was about being happy... which I replied "am not." When they dropped me off, just as expected, there was nothing special at my place. We didn't make the usual beso we are used to, and I know I was rude coz I didn't even uttered thanks to the one who drove me home. Then I heard her sorry, but I was too deaf at that moment to hear it. Bro was outside somewhere drinking with his homies, mom's, well, asleep (tired from her travel), and dad as well.
That night, I was the only one up. I can't play loud music, enough to shake the whole place coz I'll wake them up. When I went to check my mom, I decided to sleep beside her, what she muttered was "umaga na ah... buti hindi ka naisgrasa sa putukan..." then turned her back and continued her sleep. I was mindless that morning, and since I was intoxicated with Red Horse, I drifted into a deep slumber.
My morning wake up call started with a bang... seriously! My mom was nagging... what the?! It was way way bad... and it was serious. My bro and I couldn't do anything but silently pray with hopes the nagging would end. Knowing my mom, I know she'll stop but the whole nagging thing lasted for hours. whew! Funny but after all th sermon, she said "hala, kain na..." good thing she pacified.
What happened after in our household that day was a mix of old things dumped in the biggest garbaged bag I have ever seen,
I had a misunderstanding with someone who I haven't seen for the longest time. You see, New year for me was always a time for myself, to be crazy, to contemplate and to do things my way... and this year, I chose to celebrate it with the family of one of the dearest person in my life. But things turned sour when my mom texted me, informing me she was coming home to celebrate new year with me and my bro. not that I don't want to be n her company, but my family is not the kind who celebrates new year ... so I decided to continue my plan, though I already informed my friend that I might just come over. But as the time neared hitting 12, with the dilemma whether to go home or not, I decided to stick with my original plan of merry making with my friend's family.
I love the feeling whenever they treat me like one of them. Tita, actually the whole family, never failed to make me feel like I was a part of their own. Twas' relieving 'coz for the past 3 or 4 years, I celebrate new year alone either at my place or at work. And breaking the monotony of celebrating alone while still being able to think of what I plan to do the coming year was really a breather.After all the fireworks an the booze, 2 hours after midnight, as I was about to cap of the night and get ready to change to my sleep clothes, my friend decided to send me home, telling me that I should be at home because my mom's there. Shocked was an understatement. Yes I know what she told me makes perfect sense but it was really out of the blue. We had a little exchange of bargaining. I even heard tita saying, "if she doesn't want to go home, an she's enjoying herself here, don't force her, it wouldn't make her happier." But, knowing my friend, she prevailed. Before I left, tita even asked me, "Are you sure you really want to go home already, you can stay... " I just shook my head, kissed her goodbye and said, "Ihahatid na po nila ako eh, I'll be okay," but deep within ... I am disheartened. They drove me home at around three in the morning. On our way home, (as if we are not seated side by side) I sent a message to my friend regarding how bad it felt to be dumped ... she replied it was the right thing to do, coz' its new year. I can't remember what exactly she said, all I can remember is that it was about being happy... which I replied "am not." When they dropped me off, just as expected, there was nothing special at my place. We didn't make the usual beso we are used to, and I know I was rude coz I didn't even uttered thanks to the one who drove me home. Then I heard her sorry, but I was too deaf at that moment to hear it. Bro was outside somewhere drinking with his homies, mom's, well, asleep (tired from her travel), and dad as well.
That night, I was the only one up. I can't play loud music, enough to shake the whole place coz I'll wake them up. When I went to check my mom, I decided to sleep beside her, what she muttered was "umaga na ah... buti hindi ka naisgrasa sa putukan..." then turned her back and continued her sleep. I was mindless that morning, and since I was intoxicated with Red Horse, I drifted into a deep slumber.
My morning wake up call started with a bang... seriously! My mom was nagging... what the?! It was way way bad... and it was serious. My bro and I couldn't do anything but silently pray with hopes the nagging would end. Knowing my mom, I know she'll stop but the whole nagging thing lasted for hours. whew! Funny but after all th sermon, she said "hala, kain na..." good thing she pacified.
What happened after in our household that day was a mix of old things dumped in the biggest garbaged bag I have ever seen,
Monday, December 31
0 friggin' new year!
yeah! it's friggin 2008 already! so what is in store for this year? (this year is my year... RAT!!!)
i just hope I can stay as tough or even tougher...
to all my homies: keep on rockin'!
signing on 2008...
i just hope I can stay as tough or even tougher...
to all my homies: keep on rockin'!
signing on 2008...
Thursday, December 27
0 sadness from within there is...
Am missing a lot of people lately, people whom I used to laugh and share jokes with. I really hate the feeling of being alone and take for granted. It kills me whenever I miss someone yet I know the timing isn't right. I almost cried a tear at the MRT early today anticipating that I'll be seeing people dear to me ... but reality bites, still, it's me myself and I.
I pray that for this year, this will be the final blow of loneliness. And if I could just make a wish... I'd highly appreciate a line or two informing me that hey am still alive and kickin' ass.
:'(
I pray that for this year, this will be the final blow of loneliness. And if I could just make a wish... I'd highly appreciate a line or two informing me that hey am still alive and kickin' ass.
:'(
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