Monday, June 1

0 Zane+Moi= Out of the Blue Trips

Twas the 23rd of May, after the tedious campaign, Zane and I decided to reward ourselves. At around 6 p.m., we are aboard a bus at Cubao to Tagaytay. Seiously, we aint have a clear plan of what we wanna do, we just wanna go there. Three hours later, we are both beaming as we reached Tagaytay rotonda. Since everything was pretty unplanned and we are both "newbies" in the area (we have been to Tagaytay but this was our first time to come there on commute), I felt kinda lost seeing only colorful lamposts. After a short prayer asking for guidance so as not to be lost, I saw the sign...it aint the shinning star of Bethlehem but the distinct green logo of Starbucks. Without second thoughts we went down the bus and explored the lights and sights of Tagaytay by night.

Let our photographs tell the rest of our unplanned trip





bus ride to Tagaytay: Fare: 121 bucks



At Leslie's entrance...boy we're hungry not only with food but with photos to treasure the night




Zane's contemplating what to have for dinner (for sure there'd be no more chocolate cupcakes...hehehe!)






Dinner is served!

Menu: Since we are on a tight budget, we opt for simple yet delectable Sinigang na Tanigue. Yummy!




After feasting...Zane acted as a fairy godmother and granted my long term dream... coffee @ Starbucks Tagaytay








Monday, May 11

0 To The Light

Whether it was second childhood or a simple craving that you wanted a ginormous pizza or a steaming bowl of Chinese noodles, don't worry 'coz twas cute.

The glow in your eyes when we were in your so-called playground of endless silvers and chinas, and found joy by just merely looking at them was indeed precious.

The way you laugh and cheer whenever we beat the computer opponent in Family Feud sounds really melodic.

If only I could capture and preserve these moments, I would.

You are cool and smart
Brave and loving
Patient, patient, patient

What more can I ask?

For the person who loves me and kid bro unconditionally

Beyond our tantrums
our hardheadedness
No matter how fat or ugly we feel, still you see us as your beautiful lil angels.

To you our light, a day of delight.

I love you.

Tuesday, May 5

0 Just so you know

It ain't that easy...really.
For now
Just let me be.

Thursday, April 30

0 Silver

It began today...25 years ago
The start of an ardor that lead me here

It may have ended on a sad note
Still I need to be grateful

Thy bond may have been broken
Six-feet under the other half went

To you I offer who I am now
You made me whole, my existence complete

I love you.

Friday, April 24

0 And so The Script kinda read my thoughts

It's been a while since the two of us talked
About a week since the day that you walked
Knowing things would never be the same
With your empty heart and mine full of pain

So explain to me how it came to this
Take it back to the night we kissed
It was Dublin city on a Friday night
With vodkas and coke, I was getting insomniac

We were sitting with our backs against the world
Saying things that we thought but never heard
Oh, who would've thought it would end up like this

But everything we talked about is gone
And the only chance we have of moving on
Was trying to take it back before it all went wrong

Before the worst, before we met
Before our hearts decided it?s time to love again
Before too late, before too long
Let's try and take it back before it all went wrong

Thursday, April 23

0 Bangin

Ako.
Nalaglag.
Bangin.
Malalim.
Madilim.
Sumisigaw.
Tulong.
Liwanag.
Ga-hibla.
Nababanaag.
Umaahon.
Pilit.
Bato.
Kinakapitan.
Dahan-dahan.
Uusad.
Ngunit.
Unti-unti.
Bumubulusok.
Pabalik.
Tumatagal.
Lumalalim.
Ako.
Nananatili.
Nahihirapan.
Naghihintay.
Sumisigaw.
Umiiyak.
Pag-asa.
Pilit.
Binaabanaag.
Nagbabakasakali.
Gigising.
Umaga.
Nakaahon.
Nakausad.
Bangin.
Bangungot.
Ako.
Magpapaalam.

Monday, April 20

0 10 Years of Rated_PG



A toast to ten years of
fun,
tears,
joys,
pains
and most importantly
unwavering friendship!

Yeah, we are certified Beerkadas!

No matter how bad sounding "Patay Gutom" is
We have given the term a new twist...

"Patay Gutom" = relieve hunger

We long to conquer hunger with good food, hearty laughs, humor and witty conversations.
Or simply choose to "Go Green" even in simplest things.

Long live our intertwined stomachs!

Monday, April 13

0 If Only...

Rather slap me than tell me that I don't wanna do things for you 'coz you know it ain't true.
It's not just you who have burdens.
It's not just you who's stressed out.
It's not just you.
Think of the people 'round you, their situation.
You don't own the world's greatest miseries, there are some who carries a greater load than you.
Don't just throw accusations and point fingers.
Try asking why.
If only you know.
If you only ask.
Maybe, if you just try
You gonna hurt people less.

Monday, March 30

0 Responsibilities and Longings

Got a lil loaded over tons of writing blah. But I did, however, accomplished a lot of things the last few days that makes feel all adult and responsible. Been back to reading paperbacks lately as well. Makes my life a lil normal now but still having some questions popping my mind and tasks waiting to be done.

While things are getting somewhat normalize, my alter-ego still possess unbearable longing of some sort.

Time will pass...it will get by.

Monday, March 16

0 One Down

Already finished one semester of my masteral. It feels good to know that your hard work gets appreciated (Doc Joey's commendation about our paper's so damn cool!). I still have to make a module and curriculum though. Statistics exam went well too. (Chicken as what I told my cousins but I pray it doesn't give me and egg...nyeahahahahaha!!!)

Still have Org Comm to face.

So far so good...:)




Friday, February 27

0 Wishes

Been getting a lot of answered wishes lately.
Ain't that good though, coz' it leaves me all the more confused.
Zane's right.
I should be careful about the things I wish for.
Seriously.

Wednesday, February 25

0 Simple life

And I thought life can be a little less complicated this time.
I assumed wrong.
Totally.

Monday, February 23

0 Just a Thought iii

Would you deny being in a relationship with someone when the only reason that he left you is because he...died?"

How do you answer the question "Are you in a relationship?" when the only reason you are no longer with him is because he passed away. Do you say YES, and take the pains of narrating each heartbreaking detail that will send you to tears later on or simply say NO and feel guilty of denying the person who holds your heart.

Tough...really tough.

To my new found buddy...I feel you.

Wednesday, February 18

0 Of Aprons and Boxers

Your nearness sends me to the highest
The 911 of my distress
So close...real close
Only in my dreams

Monday, February 16

0 And so they think am a sports buff

First is my "all canal" stunt in that so-called OU bowling tournament.
Yeah it was. *Shame on me*

But lemme redeem myself a little, it was my first time to play ten pin bowling in my 24 years of existence. And I came there just for fun. Having the balls all canal makes it all frustrating and funny at the same time. Its like every bowling ball I touch gets cursed and are bound to that sidelines.

Now, our good ol' El President just sent me an SMS informing me that I'll be playing badminton on Saturday. What makes it harder for me to say no was the fact that the program chair requested that I play. Jesus!

I know I can somehow score on this one but am already rusty. The last time I played serious badminton was for the love of grade during college freshmen PE.

This is getting somewhat like hell...

Wednesday, February 4

0 Just a Thought ii

Being a member of the cultural minority does not give you the license to coerce and harass people to give you alms and is not an excuse for you not to work and to depend solely on other people for your daily living."


I have nothing against our brothers and sisters from the cultural minority but what happened to me is such a scary experience.

Saturday, January 31

0 Red Letter Day

To my bro and Zane, who are both adding a new chapter in their book like I do, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

Thursday, January 29

0 New Titles

In a span of one week, I have already bought 5 books, 2 of which I got for Buy 1 Take 1 @ 99Php. Nice!
Titles that are piled up for my future readings are:

  • Mac Arthur
  • Ang Alamat ng Gubat
  • The Painter (A Novel of Rembrandt's most secret seduction)
  • Low Red Moon
  • The Webster Chronicle
Am still not yet through with Amy Tan's Joy Luck Club... O.o? O well, I could always collect them then read later. Hihihi!

Wednesday, January 28

0 Weird and New Things

10 Weird Things

RULES: Each player of this game starts off by making a weblog post, listing ten(10) weird things/habits or little known facts about himself/herself, then tagging six (6) other bloggers to do the same. No tagbacks.

1. Sending me to a good night sleep means having my mom slapping gently my thighs ("tapik tapik as what I call it.)

2. My fave condiment in the world is vinegar and am afraid of pale-colored ketchups (quite chossy when it comes to the latter).

3. I'd rather see real life mumus than enter a horror booth, ride a horror train or watch a horror flick.

4. Am starting an arachnid collection particulary tarantulas.

5. I can't stand BO (body odor). I'd even text my friends if I smell one but can't vent it out in public.

6. I used to do voice overs at school, but I always get guy roles (my voice qualifies for bad guy villain, rapist or mafia leader than a sweet little girl or bitchy lady as they say).

7. My greatest frustrations are: being the CAT Corps Commander and Theater Artist

8. Give me a room that's messy, I'll leave it as it is, even messier. Give me a clean room and the OC in me comes to life.

9. I share most of the special ocassions in my life with my kid bro. (same bday, same graduation day, etc. etc.)

10. I remove the peel of bottled beverages first before I drink it.

8 NEW FACTS...


In the 8 facts about you, you share 8 things that your readers don’t know about you.

Then at the end, you tag 8 other bloggers to keep the fun going.
– Each blogger must post these rules first.
– Each blogger starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.
– Bloggers that are tagged need to write on their own blog about their eight things and post these rules.
– At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names.
– Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged, and to read your blog.

1. I love the waters but whenever I can no longer touch the sea bed, I tend to panic.

2. I always amaze and frustrate my friends whenever we do shoe shopping. I am picky with my shoes and whenever I find the style I like, the next big question is the size (am size 5). Am already so used of hearing "last size na po yan eh" or "smallest size display lang po" (when did it ever happen that the smallest shoe size is 7?!) And when I don't get my size or the style that I like, I throw tantrums and blame it all to myself.

3. Win me not with chocolates and flowers but with a good book, nice conversation and hot mocha. (But tulips, preferably lavender, is another story)

4. I work easier with guys, gays and girls-who-think-like-guys than with girly-girly girls.

5. I can be jack of all trades and love DIY. Screwing nuts and bolts, assembling cabinets and electric fans, painting the walls, etc. etc.

6. Birthdays should always come with a birthday cake.

7. Love shades, flops, sand, the sunset, moon and stars. Waterfalls are majestic. HHWW by the sea and kissing under the brightly lit moon romantic.

8. I think I can beat you in billiards. ;p

Sunday, January 25

0 Eat and be merry

The past week has been a play of taste and mouth-watering goodness. First stop, the newly renovated, rock-oriented H&E (Heaven & Eggs). From a homey, garden breakfast setup, its interiors have been painted to both express art and rock. Its chandelier, a combination of LP vinyls and discoball lit the whole resto. The menu was also overhauled to carry the names of famous rockstars with their classic dishes.

SFX: Nirvana Unplugged followed by Maroon 5 MTVs.

Sample of their heart-stopping dishes:




Next stop:

After two days of attempting to stop by for dinner, we were able to eat at JiPan last Friday. Judging the food, presentation is A++, with a taste like your eating in one of Japan's side street food houses.


Wednesday, January 21

0 Change is Coming to America

Currently doing: Watching Obama's sworn in.

Obama fever just getting started. Goodluck!

Monday, January 19

0 Somebody

So she's on the road finding that someone "matino" for me.
If she's gonna select one, boy, looks like this one's gonna be a little scary.
I hope she realizes that we are opposite poles in terms of defining "matino"
Good Luck!

Saturday, January 17

0 Stayin' Connected

Alas! Havin' a broadband connection is addicting.
A perfect cure for sleepless night filled with tons of creative juice. Makes me wanna blog all the more. Hihihi!

Thursday, January 15

0 ...

Here we go again...
Please
Do not make me wish all the more

Tuesday, January 13

0 Till We Meet Again

It took some time for me to be able to gather my strength and write my farewell to one important person in my life.

December 31, 2008

What seemed to be a happy new year to some became the most clouded day of my life. I woke up hearing the labored breathing of my dad, who was seated in front of the television. At the back of my mind, I know it was the day, though in my silent prayers am hoping that the nurses could still do something about it. That he could still be revived. I must have drank an ample dose of courage for me to be able to accept the bad news, he was DOA. At around 5 a.m., he already left me and my bro.

I tried to be as calm as possible. Being her daughter and the eldest immediate relative, I faced some of the hardest questions of my life, questions that I wished school has taught me. But really, the harshest lessons in life are from reality. Burial, casket, transit and interment. I have to be responsible for those. I called my mom, who calmly accepted the news and prepared the necessaries for my dad's transfer to Laguna. Calling his siblings however, was a different story.

My aunt, bro and I sat beside his casket during the trip home. I must thank the funeral parlor cause they really took care of us during the whole trip. My dad still looked "gwapo" in his barong and gray slacks.

13 years ago, I could still vividly recall my lola's death, the same date as my father's. Then, we still celebrated New Year and had our share of games. But now, things have totally changed. No New Year greetings and cheers.
Me, mom and bro tucked together and slept peacefully amid the blast of firecrackers outside, for the next couple of days, sleep will be out of the picture.

The wake lasted 3 days and 3 nights. Friends and relatives come and go expressing their
support. Travel to Nagcarlan is a feat, and the effort alone to get there and be with us during our darkest days is more than enough to be thankful for.

His sent off was peaceful, the sun shone brightly that day. The church was filled with family, friends, relatives and colleagues. He was accompanied by my cousin's little angel, Edward Albert.

Pappy is now at peace and sleeping. I know, his now smiling at me together with Ina, Ama, and his sibs above. I may have not been very vocal to him about it, but pappy, I do hope that you felt how much I care for you. Yes, maybe I am truly a papa's girl, though I may not admit it. I'm sure gonna miss you. Our kulitan, the laughter, the way you wake me every morning and remind me that I need to go to work. The way you tease how chubby I am and how I would retort "di bale, cute naman ako."

One day, our roads will meet again...

I love you.

Friday, January 9

0 Just a Thought i

Minsan hindi mo kailangan ng PAYO. Ang kailangan mo lang ay isang taong MAKIKINIG."

Tuesday, December 16

0 HA!

What a mess?!
After a freakin @**** incident
Am now stuck without dough in this season of cheers
What else do I have to endure?

Me really wanna cry my heart out... :(


Friday, December 12

0 No More You

Had more than enough of you.
This gotta end in time.
Good thing 'twas sooner.
So for you.
End it is.

Friday, December 5

0 D@mn!

Your a confusion.
Temptation.
Hell.
Hate this feeling.
A roller coaster ride.
Screw this.
Am moving forward.
Than be whole lotta crazy.

Tuesday, November 25

0 Dilemma

My heart is filled with various emotions. My mind is overflowing with thoughts and worries. In this battle of the heart and the mind, what should prevail? Should I or should I not? Crap.

Wednesday, November 5

0 Incompetent

Me.Incompetent.Bow.
Me Can't Write.
Loser.

Tuesday, November 4

0 Just a Thought

Bakit ang PAYO madaling ibigay pero mahirap gamitin?"

Friday, August 15

0 Goodbye darLo

Guess you can't really have the best of both worlds...

I went to Gateway last night to get my umbrella from Zane and to return her flops. I was also with Dhennis (well that's another ish). It was so fun to be with them that it never occurred to me that it would be the last night I'll be with darLo

Back track to what happened August 14:

@ Went to our CoCAAI oath-taking which was followed by a luncheon meeting.
@ Went to office (business as usual)
@ Texted Zane regarding the meet-up (badly need to get the umbrella)
@ Since Dhennis was @ the vicinity as well, we decided to meet up.

~~~~

I don't wanna recall how I lost darLo but the incident was registered in the security's records, had me talking to various food court crew and left me almost begging to the man who answered the phone to return it. The incident capped off my long exhausting day.

Well I guess things do happen for a reason that only He can tell. One thing am thankful is the fact that I didn't got hurt. darLo left without giving me a bruise but only with tears in my eyes.

I'll surely miss it. But am looking forward to having a new darLo in my life. Maybe a few months from now.

At the end of the day, karma will still be knocking our doors...

Friday, August 8

0 Ang Ocho-Ocho

Maraming nagsasabing maswerteng petsa daw ang araw na ito, 08-08-08, dahil isang beses lang sa isang milenyo ito kung dumating.

Sa mga nangyari sakin sa araw na ito (na wala na akong balak isa-isahin pa) nananalangin pa rin ako na sanay maambunan man lang ng kahit kaunting swerteng dulot ng petsang ito sa iba...

Hay...

Tuesday, August 5

0 Reunion i: Alumni Homecoming

Our alumni homecoming was FUN. Together with some of the Joinx, we had a feast of scrumptious food (which was really worth the so and so amount we have to pay for). Along with the abundant food on the buffet table, new edition of grammar bloopers and juicy stories also were shared. Mind you, the usual suspect was back with a whole lot of mind-boggling anecdotes.

Cameras were flashing here, there and everywhere that it felt like some permanent, fake smile already was plastered upon our faces. Really, smiling for the cameras can be exhausting...whew!

Then we had this nomination thingee wherein an alumni can nominate his fellow alumni to be a part of the college alumni association. Unfortunately, I became a part of the "lucky" fifteen. Anyway, I guess that's the BOSSING's way to expand my social circle.

After the party, my good ol' friend Homer invited us for one hell of a ride in his new Vios. We had coffee at Libis then dropped Rhon and Patrick at Makati. He was also kind enough to drop me and Zane at Cubao. As usual, I didn't went straight home but instead spent the night exchanging thoughts with my twin at her crib.

Indeed, we have all grown up and are now weaving our path to success. Still, in my heart they are the same old gang I had in college. They are my homies, with them am at peace. *sob...sob*

Can't wait to be with them again...

Monday, July 28

0 Reunions

Alumni Homecoming.

No, am not going back to the portals of my Sintang Paaralan but will be partying with some familiar faces on the 2nd at some garden buffet joint in Timog.

Am not really fond of such activities but the idea that my college homies will be there as well gives me all the reason to attend.

Together Again for a Night.

On the 30th, am more than excited to watch the one-night only event of the, if not, coolest band to ever hit the Pinoy music scene. Cant wait!

August will be a season of reunions indeed.

Tuesday, July 15

0 Walkathon

Reminder to self: Add MRT Ayala Station to PBCom Tower walkathon to daily routine.

Yup. I am starting my "shed-some-extra-pounds" journey by making a pact with myself to:

a.) lessen my rice intake but not to the point of starving myself.
b.) make walking an option. ergo: walking to my office every morning.

Not only do I help combat those unsightly flabs, am also lessening my carbon footprint and saving some pennies (hey, if I do walk every morning, I get to save around P11.00 daily...hmmm)

It just takes self-discipline...
I know i can do it... ;p

Monday, July 14

0 You On My Mind

I've been thinking of you lately, wonderin' if staying would do me good.
I guess I need to slow down...get unattached before I get caught hook, line and sinker.
I've always been like this...you weren't the first person I became this close with.
Coward as I may seem to be, I just don't wanna get hurt again and be taken for granted for the nth time.
Draw the line I must...
In time, I'll get used to this...
But still I won't leave...I won't.

Wednesday, July 2

0 AMEN

To the almighty BOSSING...
Thankies! You Rock!

Tuesday, July 1

0 Bon Voyage

To my dear cousins Mimi and Nhel who flew last Sunday to Taiwan:

Hope to hear from you guys soon.
Me gonna miss yah and our drinking sessions.

Monday, June 30

0 kHaLiL

A simple present for my dear friend's red letter day:

Monday, June 23

0 Survival

I'll be right behind your back in this fight against the "monster..."
Say "go," 'and it will be just a phone call away.
We may not be "powerful" enough to send people in the cold lair
But still, we can have "monsters" busted...

You'll survive my dear...

Tuesday, June 3

1 Memorial Day

Some wacky pics with my cousins during my first long weekend for '08.
(Hirap ng pinagkakaitan ng b
akasyon...;p)

Thanks to Tita Emilie for the free accommodations @ the villa and to my MOM for the yummy dinner and after dinner booze.




Friday, May 30

1 Missin You

Yes I do. 'Nuff said.

Thursday, May 29

0 Hiling. Tanong. Panalangin.

Kung ang kamay ko'y may kakayahang maglakbay, nais ko abutin nito ang mga talang nagniningning sa himpapawid
Upang mahiram ang kinang nito kahit sandali.

Sana'y singkulay ng bahaghari ang bawat araw na darating
At nang ang ngiti'y hindi na pilit.

Nawa'y maging singlaya ng ihip ng hangin ang aking damdamin

Bakit ba hindi naging

Kasing ikli ng bawat sandaling lumilipas ang pananatili ng lumbay?
Mabilis iwaglit ang bigat ng damdaming nadarama?

Paano

Kung mapatid na ang pisi ng pag-unawa?
At mapigtal na ang tanging pag-asang pinaghahawakan?

Kailan

Natatapos ang pighati?

Ngayon.
Bukas.
Baka hindi.

Wednesday, April 23

0 Something to ponder

Have you ever wonder if there is someone, still waiting for you? And the one that you have right now, ever had this strange feeling that you're not meant for each other?

From a good friend's journal post ... and honestly, this got me thinking...

Monday, April 14

0 It has been a year

yes, it has been a year ... a year since I:

a.) went gaga over ... ('nuff said)
b.) became a part of the SB Manila team
c.) had my heart broken
d.) found few precious gems whom I have learned to treasure and care for.

guess what, am still here, alive and kickin' ass.

sure I had my share of shit, of pit stops and hearty laughs. cried a river over a lot of things that has made me the person I am now.

and with my new 'do, am looking forward to facing another kick ass year...

bring it on! ;p

Thursday, March 13

0 zane's masterpiece

Monday, March 3

0 Good morning!


Morning Zoo Crew just gives you a good morning even if people at the MRT push you around, crazily shoving their asses inside the coach.

Friday, February 15

0 Starry Starry Night

Doomed.

Birth borrowed

Fate ill destined

Identity copied

From a Vincent that never shined.

Dropped school

Worked and wondered

Finding passion; seeking reason

In an existence denied

Am a forgotten progeny

That no one hears

Dark as the night, the road I lead

Ascetic I resolved

Forgot the shaving, forgot bathing

Dealt with Him, I, a paranoid schizoid

Moralizing His profundity

Still, no one listens

Mutilated lobe

A piece of me

Priceless dowry of ardor

To Sien by the brothel

Rubbished emotion

Am I heard? No, not at all

Theo and Gaugin

Bade in the midnight of my sorrows

Palette and brush

Rekindles dying flames

Inside this pitch black poke

Staring to the starry night

With the taste of tube paint on my lips

An attempt to submit into the voices within

Ending this misery I do pray,

But still nobody would want to listen.

Silver bullet unto my chest

Ended bouts of paranoia and delusion

In this cradle I lay

Soaking in red

Deserted

I mouth

"Sadness will last forever"

Eyes closed; feet flat

A portrait of surrender

Thursday, February 14

0 My New Blankie




Comfy blankie from mamye ... thankies! :)

Signing Off ... ZZZzzz ... Nytie!

0 Red Letter Day '08

How did my red letter day went? Well, I know its darn too late to post this but I got all so caught up with a lot of things to do ... awww... so sad. Anyway, here's my blow by blow account.

Mawnin


I got up pretty early and greeted all the people celebrating the same red letter day as I do: my kid bro (who is five years younger) and twin sistah by birth date Zane (she's two hours older than me.) :) It is great to have people you truly love to spend the same great day with you.

Since it was still SB observation week, I wore a purple knitted turtle neck top. Kewl! Honestly, I was not in the mood to w
ork. I was a bit sleepy... hihihi!

To my surprise, the SB team gave me
a:

dan...dan...dan...dan

A scrumptious chocolate dome cheesecake

The cake's appearance alone made my mouth water. Yum! Am such a sweet tooth. It was very thoughtful of them to remember that my birthday's never complete without a cake. *tears*

Then I met my mom and my bro for a festive dinner @ macapagal seafood market. yummy!

two days later:

I had my celebration with the joinx! at tiendisitas. It was cool to celebrate dinner with the guys and their pets. And it was nice to know that they're all in a happy and stable relationship. Big bro Homer anticipated my pet, but there was no such thing as "my pet." It all ended up in a booze party... kewl!




Wednesday, January 30

0 Hell Day!

kewl! I surpassed hell day! yahoo!

actually my day didn't start quite right. got shoved at the MRT, which caused my backache then cut stop at the elevator, waited for around 15 minutes. once I got on my seat, the team told me not to take a look at the scores which was way unacceptable. christ!

hmmm... what else... observation followed. bad news, it was a slow GMA day. talking about bad luck! whatelse?! i run out of load and my friends told me I cant have my moolah yet. :( am freakin' broke!

tomorrow's my red letter day, hope I be blessed with a lil luck...

Tuesday, January 29

0 my first laid back weekend

I had a really fun weekend before I faced hell week. Mye and Meann were @ mt place an we get to uber bond. Saturday ended as one "hintayan and sunduan day." Tiring it may seem to be, it ended up fun, fun, fun. Strolled glorietta, watchd a bit of Kyla's performance (which Mye missed due to some office tangles), ate our hearts out then Rhon joined us for some games. We went home @ midnight, had some booze sessions, got drunk then slept till late Sunday mawnin.

Sunday was a laid back day. We all had a i-dont-wanna-think-about work mode. Mye helped me do the laundry. Every meal was hearty, thanks to yours truly. Then meann woke up from her miday nap and joined me in watching "Before Sunrise." OMG! It really made me inis and sad and kilig...

Afternoon coffee. Then hearty sinigang for dinner, then hmmm....

Mye and I had some serious talk about life, the future and what we wanted our lives to be. It was a heartfelt moment.

Monday mawnin, we all have to leave early... They have to go to work. Mye's flight to Ilocos was scheduled @ midnight, while I have to be early for work because it Jess and the new boss will be coming over for a four day stay.

Things were really fun. The laid back moment has given me time to just relax. I wish I can replicate the same weekend again...

Friday, January 25

0 What will happen next?

Two days more before hell week begins. Seriously, am having mixed emotions... :(

Hope this weekend will be a whole lot of fun before I get grilled Wednesday...

Am starting to dread the coming of my red-letter day.

And I still have a whole load of assignment to finish.


This is driving me nucking futs!

What will happen next, only Him can tell.



Wednesday, January 23

0 round up...

what have transpired last week? hmmm...

~got an unexpected message from coj friday, he shared to me his latest toy, a DSLR (wish I have one too...)
~had my tour de manila ... shopped some goodies, had my mom's stitches framed
~ laid back moment while waiting for mye and tupe @ starbucks. got myself comfy @ one of the couches while sipping a venti green tea frapp and reading jessica zafra's twistd travels.
~ bonded with mye and her best friend tupe till the wee hours of the mawnin @ starbucks sykes q.ave
~sunday: domesticated mode: laundry, cooked lunch and ironed my office clothes for the coming week.

waaaahhh! i miss traveling.... :(

Wednesday, January 2

0 post New Year drama...

Seriously, my new year started way too different than I expected. 'Twas chaotic.
I had a misunderstanding with someone who I haven't seen for the longest time. You see, New year for me was always a time for myself, to be crazy, to contemplate and to do things my way... and this year, I chose to celebrate it with the family of one of the dearest person in my life. But things turned sour when my mom texted me, informing me she was coming home to celebrate new year with me and my bro. not that I don't want to be n her company, but my family is not the kind who celebrates new year ... so I decided to continue my plan, though I already informed my friend that I might just come over. But as the time neared hitting 12, with the dilemma whether to go home or not, I decided to stick with my original plan of merry making with my friend's family.

I love the feeling whenever they treat me like one of them. Tita, actually the whole family, never failed to make me feel like I was a part of their own. Twas' relieving 'coz for the past 3 or 4 years, I celebrate new year alone either at my place or at work. And breaking the monotony of celebrating alone while still being able to think of what I plan to do the coming year was really a breather.After all the fireworks an the booze, 2 hours after midnight, as I was about to cap of the night and get ready to change to my sleep clothes, my friend decided to send me home, telling me that I should be at home because my mom's there. Shocked was an understatement. Yes I know what she told me makes perfect sense but it was really out of the blue. We had a little exchange of bargaining. I even heard tita saying, "if she doesn't want to go home, an she's enjoying herself here, don't force her, it wouldn't make her happier." But, knowing my friend, she prevailed. Before I left, tita even asked me, "Are you sure you really want to go home already, you can stay... " I just shook my head, kissed her goodbye and said, "Ihahatid na po nila ako eh, I'll be okay," but deep within ... I am disheartened.
They drove me home at around three in the morning. On our way home, (as if we are not seated side by side) I sent a message to my friend regarding how bad it felt to be dumped ... she replied it was the right thing to do, coz' its new year. I can't remember what exactly she said, all I can remember is that it was about being happy... which I replied "am not." When they dropped me off, just as expected, there was nothing special at my place. We didn't make the usual beso we are used to, and I know I was rude coz I didn't even uttered thanks to the one who drove me home. Then I heard her sorry, but I was too deaf at that moment to hear it. Bro was outside somewhere drinking with his homies, mom's, well, asleep (tired from her travel), and dad as well.

That night, I was the only one up. I can't play loud music, enough to shake the whole place coz I'll wake them up. When I went to check my mom, I decided to sleep beside her, what she muttered was "umaga na ah... buti hindi ka naisgrasa sa putukan..." then turned her back and continued her sleep. I was mindless that morning, and since I was intoxicated with Red Horse, I drifted into a deep slumber.

My morning wake up call started with a bang... seriously! My mom was nagging... what the?! It was way way bad... and it was serious. My bro and I couldn't do anything but silently pray with hopes the nagging would end. Knowing my mom, I know she'll stop but the whole nagging thing lasted for hours. whew! Funny but after all th sermon, she said "hala, kain na..." good thing she pacified.

What happened after in our household that day was a mix of old things dumped in the biggest garbaged bag I have ever seen,

Monday, December 31

0 friggin' new year!

yeah! it's friggin 2008 already! so what is in store for this year? (this year is my year... RAT!!!)

i just hope I can stay as tough or even tougher...

to all my homies: keep on rockin'!

signing on 2008...

0 Feliz año nuevo!




Have a prosperous New Year y'all!

Thursday, December 27

0 sadness from within there is...

Am missing a lot of people lately, people whom I used to laugh and share jokes with. I really hate the feeling of being alone and take for granted. It kills me whenever I miss someone yet I know the timing isn't right. I almost cried a tear at the MRT early today anticipating that I'll be seeing people dear to me ... but reality bites, still, it's me myself and I.

I pray that for this year, this will be the final blow of loneliness. And if I could just make a wish... I'd highly appreciate a line or two informing me that hey am still alive and kickin' ass.

:'(

Wednesday, December 26

0 Post Christmas drama

what have transpired during the 25th:

~won some moolah from that crazy "upo, tayo" game
~laughed my ass out while watching my cousins made a fool of themselves playing that game of aiming the bbq stick tied around the waist inside 5 soft drink bottles
~got dario (the squirrel mobile pouch from kaye), a green tea hand wash from czarina,
~had tequila session with, still, my cousins... (after all, bringing carrying it on my back for hours was worth it. my crazy kuya even called me manager after giving them the bottle... crazy guy, i guess he already was too drunk)
~gave presents to my adorable pamangkins, took pictures of them, played a little habulan that unfolds the inner child in me... (i just love it when they kiss you after receiving their presents... unfortunately, it will also leave some saliva marks on your cheeks... but it was all great)


Monday, December 24

0 hAppY hOLidaYs

Before I wrap things up and head home to my dear motha...

Lemme greet all my homies...

Merry Christmas!

Thursday, December 13

1 Ang bus nga naman...

Lunes, pagkatapos ng mahabang araw sa opisina,sumama akong maghapunan sa aking mga ka-opisina. Sarap ng kain, sarap ng kwentuhan, pare-pareho naming di namalayang dis-oras na pala ng gabi. At sa pagbaba ng aking ka-opisina sa Boni nagsimula ang lahat...

Bumaba ako ng Shaw, naghanda sa pag-aabang sa bus na pa-Malinta Exit. sumilong ako sa waiting shed, at habang naghihintay, nilibang ko ang aking sarili sa pakikinig sa programa ni King DJ Logan. Ninamnam ko ang bawat kanta habang matamaang inaabangan ang pagdating ng bus. Lumipas ang mga minuto, dumaan ang kung may ilang bus ngunit wala pa rin ang aking pinakaiintay. Siguro nga'y pinagtatawanan na ako ni ateng nagtitinda ng yosi't kendi dahil sa dami ng dumaan, matiyaga pa rin akong naghintay. Nagpalakad-lakad, nagpabalik-balik, ngunit bigo pa rin akong makasakay. Alam kong magmamadaling araw na, malapit na ring matapos ang programa ni KDL, ngunit andoon pa rin ako, naghihintay. Umusal ako ng panalangin ... ngunit ako'y bigo. Hanggang sa may samu't saring diwang biglang nagsalimbayan sa aking isip.

Bigla na lang sumagi sa aking pagal na kasipan, ang paghihintay pala ng bus ay parang pag-ibig. Oo, alam ko nakakatawa. Pero isipin mo, di ba naghihintay ka rin? Nagbabakasakaling baka may dumating. Pag may dumating, minsan magiging isang maligayang karanasan ito at makakarating ka ng matiwasay sa iyong patutunguhan. Maaari ka rin namang matatagtag sa masalimuot na mga daan. Minsan, pwede kang pumili, minsan naman, sa tumal ng pagdaan nila, nagkakasya ka na lang sa kahit anong dumaan. O dili kaya, katulad ng nangyari sa akin ng gabing yun, sumuko na ko't sumakay sa ibang biyahe sa tagal ng paghihintay.

Ang nangyari saki'y isang mahabang paghihintay na may kalakip na pag-asa't panalangin na may daraan pa. Isang bus na ihahatid ako ng diretso sa aking patutunguhan. Oo, may dumaan, Malinta exit, pero hanggang doon lang, at hindi sa dapat kong patunguhan.

Minsan maiisip mo, sayang ang panahon ng paghihintay, paghihintay na ang dinulot ay sakit sa binti at paltos sa paa. Sanay hindi ka na umasang may darating pang byahe ... pero sa mga pangyayaring tulad noon, dun ka matututo. Yun ang huhubog sa iyo para sa susunod, alam mo ng gagawin.

At ng matapos ang isang oras na paghihintay at isa't kalahating oras na biyahe, nakarating na rin ako ng matiwasay sa aming tahanan.








0 weLcOmE darLo

I know its a bit late, but I just wanna say that having darLo around is good... :) and december 8 will always be memorable. darLo will stay, that's for sure... darLo makes my life rock and never fails to keep me connected... wait... curious about darLo? all I can say is that darLo's special...

If I find time to upload darLo's pic, I'll be happy to post one... ;)

ciao!


this is darL0:






Wednesday, December 5

0 Waiting for the lift


Elevator was jam packed early today ... took forever to get to the 41st floor unlike in this one (ooppsss, R-18 for this photo)

And while I pray that the elevator would stop straight at the 41st floor, ironically, it did not. It have to stop at each floor. :(

Tuesday, December 4

0 at the end of the rainbow, there's a pot of gold

Last week was a total disaster. I lost my dear phone on Tuesday. (MRT sucks, really) Some android from outer space tried invading my privy life... (sorry, am way too sober now) and somehow I get way out of budget... (lost some moolah there...)

But hell would I be bothered?

Sure I miss my phone, it's the first brand new mobile I bought out of my paycheck, and I miss the songs saved on the MP3...
however...

My friend's mom just proposed last Friday that I use her card to buy a new freakin' phone. How's that for a Christmas present? Who wouldn't be motivated to work with that kind of reward. Am also planning to grab as much Starbucks coffee as I can so that I'll be able to redeem my planner. Yahoo!

And though I know it would be a tough Monday, I still attended the Grand Marian procession Sunday and danced my ass, clapped and shouted "Sa Birhen!" together with almost every Pakileño and my dear bro and mom, who just like, me invaded the streets of Intramuros and offering prayers and hopes to our Lady of Sorrows or known to my native town as Birhen ng Turumba. (by the way, it was mom's birthday too, so I had to offer extra wishes and prayers for her. )


And the best of this week is yet to come...

~moolah on Friday
~drinking marathon aka get together with my college blockmates to cap off the week
~shopping for my new Phone...

Can't wait! :)

Thursday, August 30

Ahuh


A Tribute To The Bridge…
March 23, 2006

This goes out to the ones who were faithful to their partners. Those who loved them with all that they can. To the ones who cared for their partner. To those who gave everything to them until the very end, and sometimes beyond that. To those who insisted that they are the most beautiful person in the whole world, even though they say otherwise. The person who instilled confidence where was none. To individuals who filled the void of emptiness in their hearts and yet in the very end, their partners would say, “I’m not good enough for you.” “It didn’t work out” and followed by the words “I’ve found someone new.”

To the ones who were left broken hearted but kept their head high. To the ones who made their former partners a better person to be with. A tribute goes out to the people who became the bridge for someone else. To the ones who thanked for being to “perfect” and was wished that someone better would come along. Someone, who was better than them, was assured would come along. Yet, the bridge returns to the cycle of being who they are.

This tribute goes out to those who could only hope that their current relationship would end like they planned and that for their dreams to be fulfilled.

Someone else better will come along. we could only hope and wish.

How ironic? Would you believe that I got this post from someone whom little did the person knew that he has done the same thing...Now I realize, wheels do turn...bad news though, I was the one at the receiving end... :(

Wednesday, August 8

1 My Birthdate Means:

Your Birthdate: January 31

You're a pretty traditional person. If it's lasted, it's probably good.
You seek stability - both in your career and your romantic relationship.
In return, you're very loyal and predictable. Which is usually a good thing.
Without a partner, you feel lost. Being with someone is very important to you.

Your strength: Your dependability

Your weakness: You hate being alone

Your power color: Midnight blue

Your power symbol: Shell

Your power month: April